Like many of you all, or perhaps like the majority of you; my life has taken a turn for the strange and unfamiliar. I am torn as to what to do and I’m left feeling hopeless and futile. I’m certain this may not be the best place for advice but it’s free, and I really have no ideas or places to turn.
A brief backstory-I grew up in a very financially stable family, but had a lot of the same issues other suicide project users experience in school. I had emotional and mental issues. I was bullied. Acted out because of this and had disciplinary issues…was moved to a school I didn’t like and made a bomb threat to get kicked out because my parents wouldn’t let me go to public school. Was later sent to a “youth in crisis” hospital for trying to buy a gun (to commit suicide) with in school. Then, for half of my days I would go to a technical school to learn plumbing except I was put in a class full of future criminals and didn’t learn a single thing. Barely graduated high school with a C or D average.
After high school I wasn’t given a choice. In was told I was going to community college for tv and radio production whether i liked it or not. I clearly wasn’t ready. I begged and pleaded to my parents to let me take a year off to see what I wanted to do, but wasn’t granted that wish. I of course had difficulty learning the program, my focus was on everything but school and graduated with another low gpa. I made the right friends and dated the right girl who would help me with my projects. Passed a video production program without ever learning how to turn the camera on and off.
I realize i was fortunate enough to be allowed to go to school, even if it was community college but I sincerely wasn’t ready. Fast forward to today…
I have worked crappy entry level jobs for the past 10 years. I lived in an RV at one point, and the world has passed me by. I have so little to my name, so much so that I’ve had to move across the country to live with my father and have now found yet another dead end, thankless position here.
Anyway, the advice I seek is for anyone with an idea as to what I should pursue. My degree isn’t worth anything and that’s a tough field to find work in. The only schooling i qualify for are for trade jobs that don’t make you any more money than 12 to 14 hourly after certification, such as welding. I don’t want to join the army or drive a truck, I’m so confused. Realistically what would you think my options are?
I’m really trying to explore the possibilities of fixing my life before I resort to destroying myself which is the route I’m leaning towards. Not sure if I will live to be 30andmiserable, but any input is appreciated.
Thank you.
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Why don’t you want to drive a truck?
Not being sarcastic, genuinely curious. I did it for a bunch of years, and from a financial standpoint, it was one of the best decisions I made.
Bro, I hear ya. It’s enticing to me too, mainly for the solitude. But for someone who took fitness seriously (at least at one time) I know it’s terrible for your health. Being on the road for weeks is another strike. Also some of the schools make you stay 3 in a cab and drive non-stop. 2 others with me in a cab at all times, I would commit homicide and suicide. Oh, and also I suck at basic things like parallel parking a car.
Lol. Yeah, it’s a challenge. I think if it seems intimidating to someone, it’s probably not the best choice. And spot on about the crowded conditions. I drove team years ago (when I was 29!) and that is INSANITY. Truck is moving 24/7, one drives, one sleeps.
On the positive side, like you said, the solitude is nice, but can become an issue, and fitness – definitely a challenge. I used to carry a bike with me, also jogged and played basketball when I could.
I wish I had more suggestions. Have you ever looked into telecommunications? Lots of companies that install business telephone systems hire “cable pullers” to install cabling, jacks, basic manual labor stuff pertaining to business communication systems. Very physical, but you can work your way up to a technical/technician position in a few years, money gets better as you go. Probably the same general concepts you mentioned earlier about other trade jobs like welding.