I got up and decided to pay attention to the whining and complaining I hear today. The stuff inside my own head and the stuff out there in the world.
Date: July 21, 2017
Time……………Place……………………….Whine Content
3:50am…………..Internet Home Page……Man holding a sign; No Ban, No Wall, Sanctuary for all. The man holding the sign looks pissed off. Sign might be heavy??
3:55am…………..News Content………………Trump complained about Jeff Sessions to NY Times
5:15am…………..YMCA Spin Class…………Woman on bike; weather’s too hot and the light in the hallway is annoying because it’s blinking on and off. Man beside her is loudly grunting during the class. He doesn’t seem to like the intensity of the class. He leaves class early. Two women walk in to class late and complain because they have to take the bikes up in the front.
6:30am…………..YMCA Spin Class…………….I notice that I seem to be focusing on people whining and complaining. Make a mental note to keep track.
6:50am…………..StarBucks……………………….Man serving coffee tells me he’s seen the Dark Tower trailer for the movie coming out. He doesn’t like it because he had Roland Deschain, the main hero character, pictured in his mind as a Clint Eastwood white guy. The movie character is a black man, Idris Elba.
7:05am………….StarBucks………………………….I’m writing AGAIN in my daily journal that I need to find a purpose for this life, which seems to be running out of my fingers like sand through a sifter. Tick-Tock. Repeat whine. Daily whine inserted into schedule automatically without thinking.
7:30am…………..Home…………………………………The cherries Alyson gave me yesterday have seeds, which means I cannot put them in my oatmeal. Would be annoying to slice around the seeds. Grudgingly pick an apple instead.
8:10……………….Home…………………………………Checking suicide project. Are you kidding? This where the party is for professional whiners.
10:10am………..Home…………………………………this exercise is pissing me off and it’s only 10:10am!! I better post it or delete it because I’m going to take a hammer to this computer or my own head. Whaaaaaa….. Geesh.
8 comments
I cut my cherry seeds out, don’t see how hard that may be. You are lucky you got such a great life.
Fucking cherry seeds..that’s the start and it grows from there. I whine about cherry seeds, then the weather, then my car, then my joblessness, then everyone hates me, then no friends, then I don’t think this bridge is high enough to jump off. and on and on.
Yeah I have been told everyone hates me… I didn’t even do anything so I was confused. And I had just met this chick like a week before. I’m basically like “YOU DONT EVEN KNOW ME” But yeah I don’t have friends just because I don’t meet anyone who even remotely entertains me. I’m like I could find more enjoyment staring at a wall.
I think it might be human nature to complain about trivial things, though after reading this I’m certainly going to avoid complaining less, I realise that i need to stop taking everything for granted, after hearing lots of people’s personal stories from this website.
Though I’m not quite sure how you go about controlling such a thing? Is it as simple as just stopping yourself from complaining or are there other controlling factors?
For me the thing is noticing the amount of complaining that’s going on around me. I’m drowning in a sea of whining and complaining. And that’s got to affect me over time. If you don’t notice this it will still affect you because your mind picks up every damn thing. Next thing you know you’re headed for the bridge to jump and you’re not really sure why or you think it’s because I have cut the seeds out of cherries.
You got a good bridge near you? I was just about to jump off the bridge and then the very next day (The day before I was gonna drive 2 hours to my favorite bridge) I got a DUI from a really creepy old dude. This was October 2016. Months prior I had thought if I could get enough gas money I would run off to San Francisco to jump off Golden Gate! That still sounds appealing because it is basically foolproof. But i think I’d rather land in a pile of rocks than cold deep dark water. I cannot drive to the bridges anymore but there is a giant cliff about 40 minute drive from me. I’m thinking I could get a taxi.
Walk. The walk would do you good. Good exercise. You don’t want to jump with a weak heart and get a heart attack on the bridge. Gotta stay healthy to the end.
Ya, golden gate, I think, is the number one jumped off bridge.
Yup I have walked 500 miles in last 3.5 months. I am about sick of walking. But I really have nowhere to go so I just keep walking.