I really want to die

… But I’m scared of failure.
Will I be paralysed?
Brain damaged?

Fail and I’ll be watched and not able to reattempt.

………………..

Vent.

I have mental health, undiagnosed… But imo it is severe.

Vent.

I’m almost 26. Literally everybody I’ve met this year thought I was 12.
When I was 15…. Everybody thought I was 10-12.
You get the picture.
I’m paedo bait.
Not everyday you get to legally “bang” a “12” year old.

Lost count of the times middle aged men have tried to prostitute me and continue on to tell me they thought i was 12-14.

Walking home today with my mum and her partner and two men are hanging around.
Man 1 says “keep your eyes to yourself”
Man 2 “thats what they’re for, looking”
Man 2 “she’s just a young girl anyway”
That’s when I knew it was about me.

Shut myself in my room, self harmed. Never ever going to leave the house again.
Men are the biggest cause to my mh as it is.

I have no one to talk to.
My ex would blame me and say I shouldn’t wear skirts/dresses.

I wasn’t. I was wearing jeans and a flannel shirt thats long and covers my arse. You wont catch me wearing anything less.