im back and nothings changed

July 12th, 2017by sadlife958

How is everyone doing? I hope all the friends I made here found there solution in choosing a stable way to live. I myself have been unsuccessful even when I was gone from here for the year not once did suicide leave my mind. I am 26 and many of you know me and I have revealed myself both life and pictures of how I look for those to get the picture that my eyes are no different than yours. And for the record I am still single just as it has been my whole life. I don’t even remember the last time when I even kissed a girl. Anyways Saturday will be the 9th year since my dad left left me and it will be the 9th year since my suicide thoughts have met me. My Dad was 48 when he passed from lung cancer I was 17.

Anyways I plan something soon but not because of dad there have been a lot that I seen and burdens of my father his debts and my mom money hungry 24/7 where I’m left with barley any money to eat.

 

No more loneliness, no more being alone in the corner, no more being lied to, no more fake faces,

I’ll miss both anime & my baby brother as for my mom & sister no chance. I’m 26 & it’s hard watching ppl who have everything they want with ease and no trouble.

I have been abused in school I have been given responsibilities in life that I didn’t chose all I wanted was education and to be independent not deal with my dad’s legal debts how could he do this he knew he was dying more important my mom how could she do this why mom just why. I gave you everything & you took everything and ran and nvr looked back if I was ok.

I’ll admit out of all the parents I’ve seen my mom is complete shit she is fake I can’t believe it. I’ve been a victim of a scam in the internet a brutal scam all my sweat work was blown away but to think my mother did worse than that. Hah I have nothing more to say right now there is so much but I just don’t have the energy to explain it all a lot of you have seen my posts from previous last year so you already know what I’ve been through

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