She doesn’t know that I am doing this badly again, and I think she has grown to get a little attached to me, so it’d probably not be the nicest thing for her to find out. I don’t want to disappoint her either. She’s a uni psychologist, and students only get a fixed number of appointments total, and I have like 1 or 2 left, so I don’t want her to think that I am using this to pressure her into giving me more appointments or hooking me up with one of her colleagues, even though that is exactly what I need.
I don’t know how I am going to do without her either, since she’s been the only person that I could consistently go and open up to about my problems. Not only that, but over the years it has helped me a lot to get my own priorities straight, to understand my intentions and what it is I actually want, to make the decisions that had to be made.
She knows me quite well, so I don’t expect anyone else to fill that void any time soon. On top of that, starting a therapy with a regular psychologist would also take at least another 6 months, since they’re all over their capacities.
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Just for a tiny bit, I want you to pretend that your therapist is a general practitioner and instead of you needing therapy you have a kidney that is about to explode.
Why *wouldn’t* you tell her about your kidney? It is her avocation, her life’s work to treat them. Don’t disrespect her kid-ney treating skills. She *likes* you and treating kidnoughts. In fact, if she knew you had a problem and you didn’t come to her, she would be sad!
OK, stop pretending now.
Really. Stop.
OK?
OK.
She will help you to find ways to qualify for more visits. If you have to go to another therapist I’m sure she has some good suggestions as to whom to see. Trust her. Seek help. Accept help.
The rest is in moderation. I swear the SP Administrator needs some help. His comment filters are whacked. I couldn’t even get my comment to submit because I used the word ‘kidney’ multiple times.
Yes, if she knew, she would want me to tell her. But nevertheless, what’s the point? 1 or 2 appointments are left, and there’s a reason why there are limits to how many you get, so why should she make an exception for me?
Yes, appointments are limited and those limits are most often set by people that have no understanding of mental health. So fook ’em!
Your therapist is also, in a way, your advocate. Maybe she knows something you don’t.
You could try jotting a quick note to her: you want to see her but you worry about having few sessions left. Are there options you two can explore? Etc etc.
You know the situation better than I, but if it ’twere me; I’d go.
Hm, I’m not quite happy about it, but I guess I’ll probably tell her. Hope she doesn’t take it badly!
The word that is causing you to go into moderation is s.k.i.l.l.s. (It’s because of… a troll here.)
Ah ha ha ha I would have never guessed that. Thanks!
It’s nice you are worried about her, but you need to look out for you. And if she’s how you presented her to be, she’d want you to as well. Good luck. Hugs.
Would I be wrong to guess it’s the other way around, and you’ve grown attached to her?
It may be both ways, muspelhem.
Possibly. But if so, it’s not very strong. I barely ever think about her in between appointments, so I don’t think it’s anything I’d have to worry about.