I feel like I can’t handle 1 whole year of working customer service jobs. I wanted to work more physical jobs and even a job where all I had to do was drive but my dad says he doesn’t recommend those jobs. He says people get beat up at times when they’re taxi cabs. I understand that people do get into situations like that when working these jobs but I honestly already knew about that. I don’t care about that however. I’m 20yrs old already, so what if I want to drive a rig once i turn 21. I think it’s better than dealing with mean customers for 8 hours straight. On top of that I go crazy with my spending after working with rude customers for 8 hours straight. It’s what i do when i have a stressful day dealing with punks. I’m most vulnerable to wasting all my money on alcohol when I have a bad day of work. And working “safe” or “nice physical environment” jobs puts me in a bad mood after work cuz the people I’m around at those places piss me off even the kiss ass employees. They tell me shit like “HEY YOU’RE NOT SMILING GOOD ENOUGH!!!! GO KISS EVERYONES ASS AT THE VERY LEAST!!!” or “Go say hi to everyone!!!” I’d much rather get yelled a couple times here and there by my boss for legitimate reasons as oppose to getting treated like shit by asshole customers who ***** about 15 cents at the checkout line. Or customers who ***** about the grocery store not having their favorite tub of lard. Seriously I don’t care that I’m out here in AZ where it gets hella hot, put me to work outside in construction, or in some factory. Have me fix cars, trim a tree, or even clean pools. I really don’t see how dangerous it can be to clean windows that are only 2 story’s high unless you’re a clumsy idiot. I keep getting told “don’t do jobs like that….you can get hurt” and im just standing there thinking “no shit…but I aint an idiot or clumsy”
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If it’s your dad stopping you and you’re an adult, why are you listening to him? Go do your own thing, you won’t know until you’ve tried out these other alternatives.
that’s true….my dad preaches so much about why college is a better option. And maybe it is but college will always be there for years. If i were to take a break from college for 5 years and work my ass off at a high paying physical job like construction and save all my money, I’d have enough to pay for the rest of my years at my community college within even just 1 year without pulling out student loans cuz it’s cheaper than attending a university . On top of that…if I do well enough in those couple of years in community college I can transfer to a state university which I might not even need to for the job I wanna get. I’d most likely enroll in a trade school.
You’ll still be in your 20s in five years, so that could work.
People who like physical work seem to do well with trade schools. I met a carpenter recently who was paid close to $30/hr, so that’s definitely livable wages.
All i have to say is don’t follow what your parents say religiously. Take any job you can get, and try to stay on the lookout for something better. Every single job has an element that’s diabolical, something infuriating or irritating or stressful or…
The most important thing is to find a job that pays well enough for you to tolerate the unpleasant parts.
Good advice….thanks.
All true most of the time…
I feel like even tho they’re your parents and try to tell you whats best we have to realize that they’re human too. They aren’t perfect and they don’t know all the answers so I suppose it’s ok to break the cycle. I know it’s kinda scary cuz it’s unknown territory but sometimes we have to take a leap of faith into the unknown to discover great opportunities. There’s so many things I wanna do but I feel my family would try to hold me back. I wanna play an instrument so badly….particularly the drums and the piano…perhaps even become a dj but nobody in my family does that. Whenever I do something different they give me a weird look like I shouldn’t do what I’m doing. I feel like my family is stuck in the suburban lifestyle and I don’t wanna live that lifestyle anymore. I feel I can’t be myself here. I wanna try all kinds of things and they find me weird because of that.
Huh all valid points. I never planned to work I planned to kill myself immediately out of high school. Now I’m in limbo like trying to kill myself but my mom says “you need job to live” I’m like I don’t want to live I didn’t want to live past 18. I only got a customer service job for 7 months so I could get 350$ to kill myself with a gun. My only priority for past 7 years has been to kill myself and I am still working on that. Otherwise, every person disgusts me.
Hey, don’t do that. I know there’s a way out from that lifestyle other than suicide. Suicide isn’t the answer man. It seems right at first but it really ain’t. Whats your situation dude? If you need someone to talk to then you can tell me whats up. Maybe an online stranger can help 🙂 Many people on here are willing to hear you out. If there’s one thing I know, it’s that I know what depression can do to you and how it can sort of cloud your mind. Please try to heal first. It really changes your perspective on life once you do. I’m a survivor of depression and it’s came back recently but now I know how to deal with it cuz I survived it once already. Have you ever heard that saying?>>>”what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”. There’s truth to that. Some of us on here are living proof of that. If not us then at least try to speak to someone in the real world. Do you have any family members or friends you can talk to about this? Just hang in there. You have to become stronger than this….it’s the only way. It’s a tough fight but it’s worth the win.
I don’t think winning is staying alive. I think dying is better than life and never being born is better than life as philosophers have said. I study philosophers and psychologists work. That’s my view. I’m not here looking for help. Sick of people spreading their opinion that it isn’t the thing to do because is it my choice….. because I still have to work up the courage to be able to do it. I knew since I was 12.5 that there is nothing desirable on earth. You’re forced into a life with people you hate and are forced to do shit for them day in day out and you can’t do anything for yourself. I don’t have depression or any mental illness and I’m not trying to be a “survivor”. I come here to share my decision of suicide and share about my journey on the path to the end of my short life. I have hid it from my family but then I told them about my decision and they punished me. Now I am in worse condition than ever… been put in coma, raped, molested, after they contacted “authorities” and they usually just make fun of me. Like it’s not my own decision to make. But my whole life I have thought of them as invisible to me, dead to me. i have never wanted anything to do with them or any contact. I have no choice but to live with my parents who have killed my soul and I ask them please leave if you are going to have family gatherings please go to their place, but my dad can’t leave the house. So they always come here. I have to leave the house and sit in the boiling heat alone for 4-5 hours or so every time they get together. Which is like 6 times a week. 5/6 times I only have to leave for an hour. When they have dinners once a week I will have to be gone for 4-5 hours. I have tried to not leave while they get together (my mom says just lock yourself in your room) I go to sleep late and whenever they come over and I am still sleeping I have terrible nightmares. Then I tell my mom I need to leave the house are they out of the way but I can still hear the screaming children and cringy conversations. Most of the time since I sleep late I have to wake up before I am fully rested to leave. I do not have a car to shelter me when I leave, I have to walk. I have nothing to do except for study. I have applied for 200 jobs and not one has treated me as valuable. I have walked 500 miles in the last 3.5 months because we have moved to an area closer to my mom’s and dad’s family and they come
over almost every day now. They used to only come over on holidays when I would have to leave for each and every holiday and I just wished I could have a good holiday, but no every time it has to be about all of them.
I essentially have no family.
And the people that I do have, I do not want.
I’m not trying to get stronger, it’s not my strength that is the problem, dying is just what I desire to do.
I have been treated like garbage my entire life I wouldn’t expect it to magically cease with age
I dislike your personality a lot, but you’re a talented artist. I was impressed. Plus, you seem very interested in all sorts of esoteric things.
The thing I dislike is you can be extremely cruel to people on here. But I figure you probably smoked too much weed, and it has affected your empathy.
I hope you find a way to enjoy life again (or for the first time). I think you have a lot to contribute to the world.
That was @ Username123, btw.
I am a mentally superior king of hearts, I have never been rude to another being in my life. Seems like you have a problem with me for no reason. I don’t smoke weed and I never have, don’t know why you are pulling random assumptions out of your ass. I hate life for reasons such as people as yourself (the main reason) who tell I have been “cruel” when I have only shared my feelings and have not said anything bad about anyone else. But yeah, I’ve never messaged you have I? I only respond to posts that interest me. I don’t even know what your name means. Why single me out for sharing my feelings. I’ve never been a fan of you either, I skim through all these posts, don’t find any information of value or interest in your posts. Also, that’s great that you don’t like my personality as I am planning to kill myself then MY “PERSONALITY” (the one you assume I have) will cease to exist. I am not trying to be “an artist” so…… but you know a lot about me and my interests from this tiny site huh?
The only thing that could have been rude is me saying I’m sick of people who say suicide is the wrong choice because many people have that opinion that they don’t want to be talked out of something that have chosen.
I don’t just speak for myself I speak for many of the people I have related to and shared views with.
You creep me the fuck out, dude. Leave me alone and don’t creep on my conversation with another person.
What the fuck is esoteric. I’m not interested in that either. How do you block people? Where the fuck from this comment would you go that idea. I said I read philosophy and psychology.
Are you Borat?
If that’s your choice then I feel sorry for you. Life is precious and not only is it precious but it can be beautiful. Life can be a happy experience, how do i know this?…..cuz i have my ups and downs too but that’s why we must cherish those few happy moments. Anyways…..do as you please. Nobody can stop you except yourself. All i will say is that if you end it now then you’ll ensure your life never gets any better. If you decide to pursue happiness you will find that it’s worth the cost.
You make it sound like my life will change…. no my life has been the same since I was born. I wish to leave when I feel I have lived enough.
Oh and I was going to say don’t feel sorry for me, this is a personal choice. Not out of misery, not out of woe, just a choice out of freedom.
Could always go for a physically demanding customer service job.. Mine was in a small town and the people were the saving grace. Well more the nice parks within walking distance but still. That place was not worth it.