Message to our younger selves

I hope your doing well, but if your reading this, I know your probably not.

Difficult times await you. Times more difficult than you could fathom. Times when you wish you would die, and times when you may actively seek to achieve this wish.

There will be pain that cuts to the bone, and then further yet. And then hollowness, that makes you feel as though you are empty and have no bones to speak of.

You will discover feelings you wish had remained undiscovered, yet in your darkest moments, you will also find a slice of your soul that can only be described as “hope”.

This you will find when you can think of no reason to live yet many reasons to die, and still take another step. When your head is urging you to plunge into the darkness, yet you still fumble forwards in pursuit of light.

In these moments you may hate this hope. You will see it as the enemy because it stops you from ending your suffering.

But it is this very part of your soul that makes you wonderful. For if you have looked death in its hollow eyes, and refused to take its hand, than you are a human being of incredible courage, for doing so takes great strength.

I just pray that you won’t succumb to the darkness, that you will find the strength to fight it even when you feel impossibly weak.

I pray you’ll survive these horrors, but also want to assure that I’ll admire the fight you put up if don’t.

I hope your darkest days will soon be, and that your open wounds will soon become scars, simple reminders of a battle that you won.

I hope you have an extraordinary life.