Taking some time

I took 8 days off from work, I just wanted to get away. I felt like it made my stress worse, normally I can just handle it. But lately it’s like one thing after another, I don’t feel like myself, it’s the same routine everyday. Sleep all day wake up go to work all night, rinse, repeat. It isn’t even the fact that I don’t like my job, it’s the people I work with. They all hate me, I don’t know why, but they do. I’m constantly getting talked down too, or yelled at. I actually stopped caring a week ago, I no longer go the extra mile or care about anything except getting enough done to leave. I’m seriously just tired of it all. I hate that my whole life has been upside down for over 4 years now, I hate that I had everything and lost everything all within a short span of time, I hate that I’m either burying a family member or a friend every year. I just hate it all, and the worst part is I get told ‘you’re so strong, and I don’t know how you do it’ I’ve told people how depressed I am and it’s like they think I’m kidding. I’m not kidding, I’m tired of putting on the brave face and dealing with shit. I get to feel upset, I get to feel mad, my feelings are just that mine. I honestly don’t know how I even made it this far, maybe it was just luck I don’t know but I’m kinda done.