I’m unlucky. Very unlucky. Last year my depression faded away. I got up, I got out, I got over it. A few months after that, I was sexually assaulted by an old friend who saved me from suicide countless times. The same friend that never turned their back on me when everyone else was too busy bullying me at school. The same friend who knew about the cuts, the depression, the suicidal thoughts, the gender confusion – I told him everything.
He told me I was his “best friend” but then… he goes and fucks up my head like this.
Can you see why I’m so very eager to drop dead?
It’s a shame it had to be this way.
Back to the alcohol again, night folks!
EDIT: You know what guys? I think I may have come up with a good suicide plan.
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Are you the unlucky man or is the sexual assaulter the unlucky man? Who’s the man here? Or are you both men?
I was born a girl, going through HRT next year… yup. Disgraceful, aren’t I?
I feel ashamed that I don’t post any original content over here. Like damn, how many of my posts will be the same???????? Jeez. No wonder why I don’t have any friends speak to me in real life.
In my assaulter’s case, he’s probably the lucky one..
Sexualt assault is always tough and especially when done but someone you trust. How are you holding up?
Holding up? I can barely stand. And I’m meaning this in a LITERAL sense.
Something I can sympathise with and not because of the amounts of the alcohol fucking with my head.
That’s okay.
So, salute to not being okay and let’s forget about all the arseholes of the world. Cheers!
But if we could forget wouldn’t we be happier? Let’s remember those arseholes instead. Three cheers for good times!
I remember making a toast a while back on this site. It was a good toast apparently it could work too.
Alcohol fix everything 😀
glad someone agrees ! what’s your favourite liquid ? ?
Clean vodka for quick through, liquors or sweet wine while feeling sophisticated. Let’s remember them, fuck them all, fuck the world and let’s get totally spent! Cheers cheers cheers!
I just drink stuff I can afford at Tesco.
True enough, money, money, money eh
My favorites whiskey. Love to drink with friends.
Whiskey only with coke for me. Can’t stand the taste somehow
I lost all hope in humanity long ago. I don’t know why I come here. To make rationalizations about how there is some good left in humanity? Who cares?
I guess we do a bit. People come and go but if they still live and don’t move on, they come back here. Whatever they can say to themselves, it’s just because they feel they don’t belong anywhere else. You don’t know but what do you think? Why do you keep coming back?
My response for coming back here because I can’t really utter my thoughts anywhere else without the threat of hospitalisation.
How about yours, Nobody?
Probably the same as you.
i dont care about humanity anymore. just dont care
Why did you lose hope in humanity?
Look around.
Yeah, look around, here, there, everywhere. People are fucked up, the world is fucked up, hurrah
Maa maa, nobody, you’re in a shitty state tonight indeed. Well, not the first, not the last
i keep wondering why this town i live in has a lack of a train station
There’s no train station there? That’s weird
the only trainstation is an hour’s drive then again this place doesn’t even own a cinema or a decent shopping centre
You sound English.
born and grew up someplace in england
does it matter? are you english too nobody?
i shouldn’t be questioning the obvious
Of course you should, no one else does. Who if not you?
By the way, do you live in a country or somewhere? Sounds like a really small town for me
i like in a small town not saying where though i dont want to give myself any character let’s just say its one of the worst towns within the county nobody really likes it here most of my relatives keeps asking when we’re going to move out
Sounds tough man, fucked up places and all that. you gonna move out?
can’t. no job. no money. still living with parents and my twin’s already gone and got herself a partner and a place with free WiFi that comes with the rent. guess i’m stuck here.
and they all used to think SHE was irresponsible. guess my parents were unluckily with me.
happens to the best. no idea what to say. still.
you still here right? still with us alive and all that bullshit. strong and responsible enough for me.
yup, i’d say the same
spot on WhiteHeart
Strong..? Noooooo. If I were strong why on Earth am I not dead yet??
I’m weak. Too weak to take my own life. But I’m working on it. I’m definitely working on it.
@darkest
you’re putting this the wrong way around 🙁
believe me, it takes strength not to quit
to stay here
as hard as it could be & get
<3 <3 <3
my high is weairng off
Drink some more cause why the hell not
ran out its another shopping trip tomorrow good thing i found that extra change behind the sofa cushions
or talk to me
either of
or the three of you
🙂
[speaking of questioning the obvious]
how are you guys?
Extra charge behind the sofa cusions haaaah!
yo farah, what’s up? me soo drunk i think im gonna pass out haha
yup, I could tell by how the conversation was going 😀
nyaaaaa 😀
I know you, given your state of conciousness, you probably won’t remember 😀
but thanks a lot for what you wrote me last time…
you said I don’t have to always help & that I could post about my downs too… 🙂
that was very sweet of you
thank you 🙂
<3
nuu darkest is cool like that!
well, it is true “darkest [soon to be sunny <3 ]" said the same thing to me a couple of weeks ago
but not here, on email
& I am yet to write a long reply to that
but I was actually talking about you "whiteheart <3"
you said that to me a week or so ago here on SP 🙂
<3
so yeah both of you are cool like that! 🙂
have i? well you can anyway whatever happens i guess
<3
Thank you 🙂
we’re sp family haha!
definitely 🙂
I do love you all like sisters & brothers 🙂 <3 <3 <3