“I’m fine” I say to friends
“I’m fine” I say to my family
“I’m fine” I say to the teacher’s
“I’m fine” I say to the principal
“I’m fine” I say to my counselor
But in reality…I’m not fine…I’m far from fine, I’m sitting in my room crying, I’m standing in the distance thinking, I’m looking at my one and only friend…Who left…She left me, I’m alone, That’s what I am
Alone
Forgotten
Nothing
Just someone she used to hang out with, Just someone who came to all my birthday parties, Just someone I miss incredibly, Just, Just my friend, My best friend
Now here I am, crying, thinking of ways to end this pain, I’ve wanted to end the pain…but failed
All I ever do is fail
Is that why she left?
Because she didn’t want to be seen with a failure, a loser, a idiot, and a burden…
S u i c i d e
That’s what I hear now…24/7 voices of past relationships tell me to end it all
And
I might just do it
To make someone proud, that I’m not a loser
I’m fine
2 comments
Your first problem is that you see a counselor, you ought not to. They don’t care they just want to be paid. But you may be young because you say you go to school, I’m just telling the younger people counselors really are useless.
I say the same thing to everyone. It’s like I go to let everything out, but it just comes out as “I’m fine”.
Wishing you the best <3