Everyday for the past 4 months I’ve been thinking about doing it. Nothing has changed for the better and I just realized I have nothing to live for. I’m miserable all the time. I feel trapped every second of my life. My whole life is nothing and it’s ruined. How did I come to this point? 3 years ago today this was just a normal day where I was enjoying it with my family. But now I’m depressed and antisocial. I’ve failed my family. I’m the golden child turned black sheep. I used to be so happy. I used to be “normal.” I know how I will do it but I don’t know when.
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I’m sorry to hear about this. My brain is currently jammed up, so this isn’t much, but I’m really sorry to hear about this.
I honestly wish I could help you. I can empathize on so many levels.
Please do not feel you have failed your family. If they love you truly, they will not judge nor turn there back on you, will instead seek help and give you the encouragement that you need.
Same.. I hate my family! Since 15 all I have wanted to do is get the fuck away from them not even be in same country and have them have no clue where I am. Pretend I never met them and have a good life for once. They get worse to be around all the time and sad to say I still am forced to live with them. That is a big reason why I want to kill myself. I thought I’d at least be out of their house by now.
I can completely relate to going from being the golden child to the black sheep.