Do you ever have days where you just don’t want to be conscious? Yeah, I’m having one of those right now, and I don’t really know what to do about it. Sure, I can sleep, but I’ll wake up eventually. What if I’m still like this when I wake up?
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Same here -had last 2 days like this. It’s the worst feeling. Can’t shake it. Don’t know what to do either. Sorry – not helpful.
Have a vent on here. May be helpful for you.
I’ve been doing mostly well for the past month, and I don’t have a lot to vent about. These last few days have just been inexplicably rough. And for anyone wondering, sleep didn’t help.
Definitely. I feel like this most of the time and often question why I’m still conscious. So I can see where you’re coming from. Just vent or read posts, I guess. I sometimes find comfort in being able to relate to what people are saying on here.
Yeah, I can see why you do, and I do too. “Alone” is one of the worst feelings in the world.
Yes – good to know others feel the same and you’re not a freak.
Yeah I had the same feeling. It lasted for 2 months. I would feel terrible before bed and terrible when I wake up. There must be a word for that. It gets worse when I can’t sleep or when I wake up after 30 minutes after falling asleep at the latest hour. It just went away about 4 week ago…. well, then it came back bout 2 weeks ago, but not as bad.
Well, I’m glad it’s not as bad for you as it used to be, but I’m sorry you have to endure it at all.
Waking up is the worst part. That first minute or two of consciousness is like a crushing weight. I’m going to fall asleep in a few minutes, but I’m dreading waking up.
I think to some extent I’ve felt like that for a decade. Like life was a bad dream. The best was that fleeting moment after waking up, before I remembered what my life was like, and was just present. That was amazing.
I can’t imagine a decade of this, to be honest.
You used the past tense. Is that decade-long period over now?