I know I have been told here on this web-site multiple times that I am smart, but if you meet me in person, you will change your mind. I’m fine because I can make good grades. How do I even do well in school? I once was asked by my old guy friend in anger because I said something he didn’t like. How did Helen Keller learn to speak, if she was deaf and blind, even went on to receive a bachelor’s degree? I didn’t said that him just explained how people with disabilities find other ways around a problem, but I missed the point. He was angry with me. He was being sarcastic in order to insult me.
I am inattentive, interrupt conversations too much, can’t pay attention to conversations or lectures, so I either learn by reading the actual textbook, then watching youtube videos on the subject, in fact I do better with on-line classes because attending class is such a waste of time for me. I can’t sit still. I’m constantly rocking back and fourth. Sometimes, I grin for no reason because my mind magically disappears and then reappears. Symptoms of ADD?
I have low emotional intelligence, see the above story. I have been classified with an intellectual disability, only to find out on the internet that lack of social skills can count as mental retardation. How my parents raised me didn’t help though. It took me forever to understand why men would sexually harass me. Why are did they wanted to get laid with me so badly? I’m not a slut, in fact I have a low sex drive. I’m not that attractive. I’m a 5 out of ten. I’m overweight, so why? Because I am not picking up signals that the men just want a hook-up, instead I mistook them for friendship. God, were those guys disappointed. I have no boundaries with people, realize I was never taught about them, another reason men prey on me. Overall, I’m an easy target because they believe that I have nothing in-between the ears. I have autism, fuck me.
I learned about social skills though the computer. The computer is my best friend, my teacher, my parent, and my savior. My real parents are neglectful. They don’t teach what I need to know, instead everything wrong with me is just bad genes. They won’t accept responsibility, only I can accept mine, but I’ll bite. If my genes are so shitty, obviously I got them from my parents. All they do is point fingers at one another. If both parents genes is shitty, why in God’s name did they decide to have a child, so she could have shitty genes? As another member on this web-site said, I am the result of two incompetent parents, but I have to improve and stop blaming everything on genes.
Take it from me. Academic intelligence is nothing without the emotional intelligence, instead you are left with thoughts that torment you of what you did wrong, and why nobody likes you. Employers do not want someone who bounces around, and can’t fully get what you’re trying to say, so instead I get to live off the government. That’s right, you’re tax dollars are going to me. I am not smart. This is like magically understanding the hard stuff without knowing your basics. It’s like saying you’re smart except this and that, when it’s easier to say that you are not smart. It’s like a smart person, trapped inside a retard’s body. Sometimes, I want to shoot my frontal lobes out, so I don’t have to deal with this emotional pain anymore.
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Blue diamond, I think that you’re not far enough down the path of academic intelligence to say that it’s not valuable without emotional intelligence. I’ve read a lot of your posts and you seem very strongly opinionated on a great many things. That’s not a bad thing.
But sometimes one should give something a try wholeheartedly before saying it’s not worth squat. For example, someone with academic intelligence would not litter their post with grammar mistakes. One or two is fine, but you have a lot of them.
Again, not calling you stupid. I’m just saying that youre not far enough down the path of academic intelligence to preach about its shortcomings in my opinion.
The word “retard” is offensive, don’t use it to describe yourself or anyone else.
Sometimes people are “special needs,” or you could call it “mentally handicapped,” although that might be offensive now too, I’m not sure.
You’ll probably be fine, you just weren’t taught to observe social cues. The more you notice, the more you’ll learn.
Thank you for your candor and honesty, Blue Diamond. It speaks volumes about the person inside you.
Fuck what others feel about “how far down the path of academic intelligence ” you are or arent. Opinions are like assholes, right? Everybody has one, and some smell worse than others. Perhaps Mordred will be kind enough as to leave a red flag at her current location along the path of intelligence so when the rest of us catch up we can feel a tremendous sense of accomplishment at accomplishing academic enlightenment. Until then, he should keep his fucked up opinions to herself. Or whatever gender it is. 😉
I’m not mad at Mordred. I feel as though I can’t write a post, and except people to just stroke my ego after posing an argument against it. If this makes sense of what I said, then again guess I’m a tough cookie. Been called a lot worse. Thank-you for defending me.
I am the result of two incompetent parents too. I have ADHD too. I have OCD too. Everyone learns at their own pace and some people may be smart in one area but a complete idiot in another. No one is a perfect 100 in being “smart” in everything. If no one taught you something, how the heck were you suppose to know? no one can just pull any information out of their own ass, you have to learn about it. What you consider as being “smart” is people who had more opportunities to learn before anyone else so they have information others don’t have yet. But most people, instead of sharing information, just outright calls you stupid for not knowing the information you were never given, that’s their “not so smart” area.
You are smart, I can see it from reading your post. You understand so many things my ignorant mother will never understand because her giant ego is blocking her mind from receiving useful information. You know your flaws, now go fix it! Being curious and always asking questions is what “smart” people do because they want to know things. You sound like you want to know things. Go help yourself and learn! The internet is at your beck and call.
I can relate. Social skills go a long way in this life. All I can say is I hope you improve yours somehow. Idk. Maybe you hold yourself to a very high standard? Have you heard about the Dunning-Kruger effect?