I know my husband frequented sites like this.
A month ago he was successful in his quest for death using a ******** exit bag. He was 31. He left me behind, as well as two kids age 2 and 7. The pain and grief we feel is heartbreaking, utter devastation.
According to the first eyewitness on scene, my husband had a blue carrier bag over his head. There was a hose by his side. The eyewitness could clearly see the hose was on the seat next to him, his hands by his side, but he had slumped forward (he was in a vehicle). The eyewitness could not see the other end of the hose which obviously was attached to the gas as I believe he’d tried to hide the gas under a jacket.
According to police, he’d taped the bag around his neck – so how did the hose fall out? The police said he’d taped the gas open – I don’t know if they mean the actual gas canister (to prevent it falling off or being turned off) or the handle on the hose (to force the gas to flow) I will be asking this.
Obviously he died, but is it possible he pulled the hose out to prevent his death but it was too late? Would there have been enough ******** in the bag to finish the job?
Alternatively did it fall out as he died, or perhaps he convulsed?
How did he have time to tape the bag around his neck?
I know that he used the correct pure ********, and a tyre inflation kit attached to the ******** and into the bag. This is something he’d heavily researched and planned.
He left a note blaming me – this I cannot understand.
I just want to know from people with the knowledge and experience – if he had pulled the hose out or it had fallen out at some point, would he have suffered? Would he have had the panic from CO2 or lack of oxygen? Or would he have just stayed unconscious and not known anything?
Is it possible he pulled the hose out during the time he was falling unconscious or is it more likely it fell out? It was apparently a curly hose with a trigger handle, a bit like a petrol (gas) pump handle, so I am assuming unless he taped it open (which we don’t know yet) he had to hold the handle to force the gas out.
I know he is dead. I know it worked. I just worry he suffered and I’d rather know if he did or not.
I know it wasn’t a cry for help – he was a clever man, he researched this and knew it would be fatal, he knew it would be quick and painless. I’m just wondering if he had a change of mind.