August 12th, 2017by lulu1999

Do you ever look back at your life and just instantly break down in tears?  I am 18 years old, and in all of those 18 years I have done nothing productive for myself or for this world.   I never tried in school, I really just barely got by.  I never focused on building strong friendships or relationships, or at least never succeeded in them.  I played soccer for most of my life, but was never great.  I like to sing and play guitar, but I’m mediocre at best.  I never excelled at anything I did, i just existed.  The part that frustrates me most, is that I COULD’VE done really well at a lot of these things, but didn’t try.  I know I had the potential to be a straight A student if I had put in the effort.  I could’ve been a really great soccer player, maybe even gone to college for it, if I practiced more.  Why didn’t I care? Looking back, if i could start over, or even just start high school over, I would do every single thing differently.  I hate where I am in life right now, but I know there is no one to blame but myself.  And its too late to start now.  I feel already so behind in life that theres no point.

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