Another ‘relationship’ failed before it even began, honestly I can’t figure out why I bother trying.
I’m so fuckingly, desperately lonely that all I want is a pair of arms wrapped around me while I cry.
This life has been such a waste – I don’t know why I am still here, I just take up space that someone useful might be needed for.
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If you need to cry and feel comforted you ve find the right place. Don’t worry a lot of people experience the same as you do. I do. I m always terrorised about what people think and I get quickly emotionally involved. I have a new boyfriend and I love him but I remember last time it went wrong and I m terrorised to ruin everything. Because even if he s nice and understanding he ll never understand it. I m suffering from PTSD and major depression for 4 years now. And I m still here . The secret to survival , to getting over this unbearable loneliness is to find something inside of you that makes you going on. For me it s my love for my little sister. I don’t want her to be all screwed up like I was as a young kid. And also life is not about being useful, we re not objects, we re human beings. Life had no point, no right direction , we just follow a path and make the most of it. When it ends we re a pile of memories and the aim is to feel this few last seconds that you are the best person you could ever be, and that you have no regrets. If you don’t think this path won’t bring you anything more than pain then you might consider death. But if somehow you believe that could improve your life you have to go on
If you need to cry and feel comforted you ve find the right place. Don’t worry a lot of people experience the same as you do. I do. I m always terrorised about what people think and I get quickly emotionally involved. I have a new boyfriend and I love him but I remember last time it went wrong and I m terrorised to ruin everything. Because even if he s nice and understanding he ll never understand it. I m suffering from PTSD and major depression for 4 years now. And I m still here . The secret to survival , to getting over this unbearable loneliness is to find something inside of you that makes you going on. For me it s my love for my little sister. I don’t want her to be all screwed up like I was as a young kid. And also life is not about being useful, we re not objects, we re human beings. Life had no point, no right direction , we just follow a path and make the most of it. When it ends we re a pile of memories and the aim is to feel this few last seconds that you are the best person you could ever be, and that you have no
*Hugs U* I hope that you find the love you deserve. Shallow people are everywhere, but sometimes you come across That person that totally understands and who loves unconditionally.
First off, I think it’s excellent that you’re still trying. In the long term, that is likely to get you what you want. I believe you can have someone’s arms wrapped around you, it just takes patience and effort.
You say your life has been a waste so far, but that needn’t continue. The future can be different. I for one am glad you’re still with us.
And there is plenty of space! You are an asset to the world! You have just as much of a right to be here as anyone or anything else.
Hugs
It’s okay I’m almost 26 years old and never had a relationship. I’m not worthy enough I guess. I hope knowing that someone else feels your pain makes you feel a little better.