Why?! I loved you. Why hurt me like this?

why B? Why? What did I do to deserve you cheating on me? Especially the way you did. Why did you drive me to do that?! you honestly believe I’m happy how I retaliated? 15 years of my life came crashing down on me that cold Monday.  You tore my soul out. I don’t know who I am anymore. Millions are praying today and I feel nothing. The devils I’m thinking how do I get the angel of death to take me.

This is isn’t right. None of it. I can’t get away from it.  I try and try. Ultimately I get screwed. That’s what I’m good for right?!

why did you lie? Why didn’t you tell me what they told you? Are you that ashamed of me….  why didn’t you have my back?

I hope I die. I can’t feel everything I’m feeling. i hate you I hate you I hate you. Why make promises and on the sly turn away? You never loved me. I’m 39Kilos now. I’m slowly dying. Things will never be the same.

you DOG and I still care about after everything we did. I’m sorry for hurting you. Then sometimes I think NO I TOLD HIM DAY ONE WHAT I WILL DO IF HE CHEATS OR BETRAYS ME.

you used me. I never wanted your money. I wanted us to be safe and do it together

thats what hurts the most. You didn’t believe in us. That’s what it came down to.

Im too far gone. I have no soul. I feel this deadness inside me.

You don’t know me and you never did that’s the sad thing. I loved you. I believed you. In us.

who knows mr domino… the gates of hell opened up that day.

Why did you destroy me? Please take my life. Do it you coward. Don’t whisper it in my ear if you weren’t going to stick to your word.

Please just kill me. Please. I see and hear it all. Plays non stop. Please kill me please. I never would have hurt you. Why did you take the last bit of hope and faith I had in this world?

are you happy? You proved I am worthless. Please take me of this earth. Just promise me you’ll do anything to not end up soulless like me. You don’t believe me. When those gates opened they reached for you too. Don’t be too late to save your soul.

I just wanted us to be together in love and happy

God if you are out there help him. Just take me away pleaseee