It have been so difficult to continue. Sometimes I just think I’ll lose my mind. I’m lonely and tired of fighting. Recently I had a dream that I have killed myself. I was aware of my family’s pain, but continued repeating to myself that it need be selfish.
I’m scared, because I can’t trust myself anymore.
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” Iām lonely and tired of fightin” – I feel yah!!!
These are just couple of words but has a deep meaning and indescribable pain behind it. It’s hard I know. I wana be selfish too, like just stay away from my family and never come back so they can live in peace and not feel upset about my life. I’m hoping it to happen soon.
I do not know what you’re going through, whatever it maybe you’re not alone. Just gota keep rolling as far as it goes.
I feel the same way. Especially because I have supplies to die, but I also fear of dying, but I don want to live.
I’ve had those dreams too š I tried googling what it meant to get some clarification or whatever. I don’t believe in these generalized dream interpretations because we all think differently, but the popular interpretation of this dream is that you are going through a change and you’re essentially “killing” a part of yourself and leaving it behind. You’re becoming a new person, they say.
I’m not sure how I feel about that, since I would actually like to die, but maybe you can relate to it?
I am sorry for the pain that you are going through, no one deserves that.