I Hate Myself. It’s as simple as that. I hate everything about myself. I hate everything I do. My friends and family never get it. I don’t blame them though, I’m actually glad they don’t know how this feels. This is just gonna be me talking trash abut myself, so be warned 🙂
I hate how I look. My bumpy, uneven, and dark skin. My crooked teeth. My chinky, uneven eyes and eyebrows. My grey, oval lips (yeah, I have no cupid’s bow). My big, oily forehead. My chubby cheeks. My short fingers. My weird nails. My smile. My low voice. My hairy arms and legs. I hate how when I walk my thighs jiggle. When I sit, my thighs turn into squished lumps of fat. I hate how I sound like sponge bob when I laugh. I hate how my sneeze is as loud as an air horn. I hate how whenever I look down a double chin forms. I hate how my crying face looks. I Hate Myself.
I hate everything I do. I hate how I ask stupid questions in class. I hate how I try to relate (but fail) to what my classmates are talking about. I hate how I never speak my mind. I hate how I’m so kind to the point where people use me. I hate how I act so strong, so no one asks me if I’m okay. I hate how I’m shy. I hate how I can’t even follow my own advice. I hate how I think I’m good at something, but I’m not. I hate how I’m so afraid of how people will see me. I hate how I believe the things the voices in my head say. I hate how I always run away. I hate how I keep hoping for thing, hoping for someone to care, just to be let down. I Hate Myself
I hate my Depression
I hate my Anxiety
I hate me.
4 comments
I don’t know…you sound pretty cool to me… 🙂
Take it from one who knows; taking one’s own advice is really hard to do – especially when it’s spot on. If everyone could do that, this site would probably be unnecessary.
I’m sure you’ve heard this before, but start looking for the positive in yourself. Write them down as you think of them so you can see them when you’re getting down on yourself. Let me start you off…
. You’re a damn good writer. Your thoughts were clear and direct.
. You’re courageous. Not everyone has the guts to put their soul out here on a website.
. You’re loyal to your friends.
. You are strong.
OK, I took care of the easy ones 😉 Keep going. Changing your mindset won’t be easy…but you can do it.
I can really relate to you.. I hate so many things about myself too.. I always tell other people who have my issues that one day someone will show you that to them all your flaws are beautiful… i know it’s hard to believe because I honestly don’t believe it for myself because I just HATE me.. but maybe it’s true ..
Wow. It’s like we are one and the same person. I could have written that (if I would be this good at explaining my thoughts).
I have some of these same insecurities and feelings about myself, slowly I’m trying to conquer the feeling that haunts my insides. Know that you aren’t alone in these feelings of hatred.
you’re writing is so well written and beautifully worded, it’s inspired me to write a post similar getting out my hatred on myself as well