I kinda need to vent

September 12th, 2017by FakeYouOut

Ok…so…I just feel like I need to vent and get my thoughts out….

 

so, first off, my mom treats me like crud. She blames me for things I didn’t do, has called me a b*tch on multiple occasions, I get in trouble for the things my littlest sister does most of the time, she’s spanked me, smacked me, and so on. And she’s fake. She fakes her personality around everyone except me, my dad, and my sisters. Also, she’s told me to never show any emotion other than happiness and to keep my opinions to myself. I’ve stopped doing both, mind you, but whenever I bring it up she says she never did that! Actually, she says she never did anything I’ve listed! I’m just fed up with it….and then we have my dad…he’s actually nice. He tries to help me. He’s the only one in my family other than my 10 year old sister who knows I’m suicidal. And my littlest, 6 year old, sister treats me like crud too…she’s tried to punch me, ram into me, hit me in the head with a Barbie doll…and what does my mom do? Tell me I’m overreacting! And all the while, I have zero real life friends because no one ever takes me anywhere where I can be social! (I’m homeschooled) and the other night, I overheard my mom saying some offensive things about suicidal people…pretty much saying that no one ever means it, and they should never be taken seriously, because the only people who actually mean it never tell anybody…and she’s also one of those people who think suicide is selfish….I’m just fed up with all of it…I’m fed up with life…also, please excuse my grammar…I’m not too great at it…

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