My life can be summed up in one sentence…

So, my life can be summed up in one sentence: That didn’t go as planned. I’ve had multible boyfriends and grilfriends, but I alays end up dragging them into my depression. i always push away my friends, and I end up hurting them. i hurt everyone in my life, and I can’t do this anymore. I want to vanish from my life, and i want to leave all this, so I don’t have so see all my loved ones suffer. not that they would even notice, but you get what i mean. why can’t this be easier? why does life have to suck?