Pessimistic Rant

Feeling very empty. Things never work my way, doesn’t matter if I think positively, try my best, or whatnot. If I strive to get what I want, 98% of the time I do not get it. Same with relationships. I don’t blame others for my flaws, but I just can’t figure out why I fail at so many things. I wasn’t born a pessimist, but have become one over the years. I’ve never been good enough and all I want is a break…( oddly here I was thinking of the kit-kat “give me a break” jingle)