When I’ve had a couple of drinks, my mind feels free and clear and I’m a nicer person. I can articulate my words and can manipulate any situation I’m in to my advantage. But I don’t. Instead I do use my super powers for the good, like I’m a f*cking super hero. My feelings come back, I feel the good emotions. I can emphasise and be sympathetic. I become a warm, generous and speak up against wrongness in front of me. I become Nelson Mandela, Mother Theresa, Professor Xavier and Superman all rolled in to one. People like me. But that’s only when I’m slightly drunk.
Otherwise, I’m usually a cold, cowardly, miserable, grumpy, sad, selfish c*nt.
I know I can’t be drunk all the time. But sometimes I wish I could. Especially in the weekends.
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Alcohol is that huge mood changer for you. For others it is some other substance or activity that brings about a huge mood change for them. Sorry your life has been so hard that the huge mood change is sought to relieve your pain. I have just about finished ruining my life pursuing huge mood changes. I do it using money in wrong ways and I find it just as destructive as alcohol in the end. So yeah.
This is how it is for me too but with herbs, they are the only things in my life right now that can make me feel better. I can’t tell you to do anything because in the end it is up to you if you want to rely on alcohol to change your mood. I am off of herbs right now due to finances and it has been a rough few weeks for me to say the least. I am also struggling with the same thing so at least you aren’t alone. Best to you friend.
Thank you.