I have Asperger’s, severe OCD, have been depressed, general anxiety disorder. I also severely hate myself, and I constantly wish I was never born. Every time I stare at something like knives, I just think about ending it all, even though I would never ever do that.
I am generally overwhelmed so frequently. I feel like there is stuff I should have already accomplished that would make me have SO MUCH attention, but I haven’t because of simply how bad my OCD is. This idea overwhelms me SO MUCH. My life just gets worse every year. I just feel like not many people has a similar life story to mine. No matter where I go, I feel like I just CANT relate to people. I feel like no one thinks about ending their own life as much as I do. I am also more quiet than most people, which is also another other reason why I can’t relate to people. I feel like not many people (that I know at least) feel as badly as I do,) about things like being deferent than everyone, and not accomplishing amazing things, just for simple reasons like severe ocd. Also, my life does NOTHING butt get worse every single year. I feel like a minority in so many ways. I wish I were much older. Why must everybody or at least most people be so much happier than me? I feel like nobody has this many things that bother them, or similar thoughts to me. I just generally hate the person that I am for the vast majority.
I also have this problem that is BY FAR the worst thing ever. My WHOLE body is EXTREMELY HOT ALL THE TIME. For absolutely NO REASON at all. It may not sound like a problem but trust me IT IS. I have to with this EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE. And this leaves me to wonder: why must I have this EXTREME physical discomfort THIS BADLY ALL THE TIME? 99% of people don’t, so why does that mean that I should? The world treats me SO UNFAIRLY to the point where I don’t even want to live.
I wish I was more like my brother. He doesn’t even have 1/1000 the amount of issues that I have. Nor does 99% of people that I know.
I also feel like I am DEFINITELY one of the most confused people of all time. Why? Look at everything I have typed so far. I doubt very many people I know would have this many things that confuse them.
Long story short: my life is a COMPLETE mess and it only gets more overwhelming and depressing every year.
I didn’t mention this, but I am also a huge fan of bowling. I can do really well in it, but my OCD makes me do SO MUCH worse in it. I literally feel like I could have set a record in it if I didn’t have this problem. This idea makes me more depressed than EVER. You wouldn’t understand.
I too was a mistake. My dad wanted to abort me. 32 years later he’s the only one who loves me on this planet. My mom is a selfish piece of shit. She just should have listened to my dad.
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I wonder about that too every day
Are you depressed? Or other problems?
Life is just too overwhelming
Life is just too overwhelming basically
This is going to be a pretty long post.
I have Asperger’s, severe OCD, have been depressed, general anxiety disorder. I also severely hate myself, and I constantly wish I was never born. Every time I stare at something like knives, I just think about ending it all, even though I would never ever do that.
I am generally overwhelmed so frequently. I feel like there is stuff I should have already accomplished that would make me have SO MUCH attention, but I haven’t because of simply how bad my OCD is. This idea overwhelms me SO MUCH. My life just gets worse every year. I just feel like not many people has a similar life story to mine. No matter where I go, I feel like I just CANT relate to people. I feel like no one thinks about ending their own life as much as I do. I am also more quiet than most people, which is also another other reason why I can’t relate to people. I feel like not many people (that I know at least) feel as badly as I do,) about things like being deferent than everyone, and not accomplishing amazing things, just for simple reasons like severe ocd. Also, my life does NOTHING butt get worse every single year. I feel like a minority in so many ways. I wish I were much older. Why must everybody or at least most people be so much happier than me? I feel like nobody has this many things that bother them, or similar thoughts to me. I just generally hate the person that I am for the vast majority.
I also have this problem that is BY FAR the worst thing ever. My WHOLE body is EXTREMELY HOT ALL THE TIME. For absolutely NO REASON at all. It may not sound like a problem but trust me IT IS. I have to with this EVERY SINGLE DAY OF MY LIFE. And this leaves me to wonder: why must I have this EXTREME physical discomfort THIS BADLY ALL THE TIME? 99% of people don’t, so why does that mean that I should? The world treats me SO UNFAIRLY to the point where I don’t even want to live.
I wish I was more like my brother. He doesn’t even have 1/1000 the amount of issues that I have. Nor does 99% of people that I know.
I also feel like I am DEFINITELY one of the most confused people of all time. Why? Look at everything I have typed so far. I doubt very many people I know would have this many things that confuse them.
Long story short: my life is a COMPLETE mess and it only gets more overwhelming and depressing every year.
I didn’t mention this, but I am also a huge fan of bowling. I can do really well in it, but my OCD makes me do SO MUCH worse in it. I literally feel like I could have set a record in it if I didn’t have this problem. This idea makes me more depressed than EVER. You wouldn’t understand.
I was unplanned too. Im assuming god had plans for us, although hes takin his sweet a** time tellin us what we r supposed to be doin here.
I too was a mistake. My dad wanted to abort me. 32 years later he’s the only one who loves me on this planet. My mom is a selfish piece of shit. She just should have listened to my dad.
At least you have someone who loves you. Some of us don’t even have that. 🙁
It’s also bad to be a planned pregnancy, and then to find out at birth that you weren’t what they wanted.
My parents had me at 40. God that is too old to have a baby.