Been in mental hospital 60 odd days

October 26th, 2017by Cause of Death: Suicide

3 separate times. Diagnosed with all sorts of random mental illness. Only reason I was in there is because of the man that molested me when I was a child. I wouldn’t have been in there had he not followed me and reported me to cops. Those hospital stays ruined my life and the medication fucked up my brain. I will never have a chance for a not fucked up life again. I’ve always hated him, and I wouldn’t have remembered the time he molested me had he not been strangely sickeningly following me last year and then he came in my dreams and started raping me

(About 9 times in the last year and a half. These dreams fucking scare me. The first dream I had he was sitting on the couch talking about how my teacher should give him a blowjob, second dream he got on top of me while my mom was watching excersize tapes and raped me, third dream he is telling me his favorite band, fourth dreams he is talking about sticking it in and woman and pissing. 5th dream I am driving in his car and he forces me to grab his genitals. 6th dream he is saying he is going to spend the night and womanize this woman I met. 7th dream was 3 nights ago. He is at my house and I run to get the fuck away from him and then he follows me says “let’s just do it” then he shoves his genitals inside of me. I woke up TERRIFIED. I overdosed on about 100 pills after the first dream and I ran to the cliff that I was planning to jump off after the last dream. Hoping to jump, but in my last posts, failed due to it not being high enough.)

Then I remembered all too quickly about what a sick fuck he always has been. Should I report to cops? Honestly? I have no clue. I’d love to see him have a big fat incestual  pedo charge on his record. I mean, you have no clue how bad the mental hospital stays were. They tortured me. THEY’RE FUCKING SICK. I was in 4th grade he was in 11th.

I haven’t thought about this but it’s ridiculous how I acted in 11th grade vs him. He was the stupidest most immature guy.

Also I am a lesbian.

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