Idk how many of you are getting pissed reading the title but I’m desperately in need of motivation to live. The pressure in my head is too extreme that I could feel it in my ears and eyes. I opened this site to post this last night but I had no strength physically and mentally to pick up my phone.
I have always been a giver and never received anything back. All I ask for is a little love, a little, to escape from all the pain I’ve been going thro for 16 yrs now. I am always alone idk why.
I finally got a job after so many failures but less pay. I’m in a new country now where ppl speak a different language and no one understand English. I do not want to live here but there’s no other way for me to survive.
Everyday is painful. I am too tired doing everything all by myself. All my life I’ve been truthful and loyal to people. All I got back was lies and cheating and pain. Im scared to let anyone close to me now. Every man I tried to be friends with, wants to sleep with me. Is that how it works everywhere? Or am I so dumb to understand this world?
I just want some love that doesn’t hurt. Idk how some ppl can hurt the ones that love them. I can never do that to anyone.