I have been suffering from severe anxiety and depression and I just want it to end. I have felt this way since I was 13 years old(5 years ago) and I kept coming up with reasons not to kill myself. The only things I have left now that would slightly make me want to keep living are my 2 close friends and the most amazing girl I have ever met. Everything else in my life is going horribly. I hate my job and I can’t get a better one. I am constantly fighting with my family. I can’t handle the stress and anxiety attacks caused by university. My best friend moved halfway across the country. None of the coping methods I used have any affect anymore. I don’t have any reasons to keep living anymore.
I don’t want to die but I don’t want to live either
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I was 13 years old when I first started having full blown panic attacks too. I take Xanax, Propanolol, and Paxil which stops them. Had my last severe panic attack about 6 months ago.
I was miserable when I was your age. I’m guessing you are 18? I’m 33 and for me things just went downhill. I’m still falling after all these years.
Have you constantly felt this way since 13? Or does your life have ups and downs? Mine seems to just have downs so I can’t speak for you.
One thing that you have to realize is that killing yourself is incredibly difficult. That’s why I’m still alive today. Tried overdosing and hanging. Didn’t work. About 90% of suicide attempts fail.
Maybe you don’t need to go to college. Sounds like you need a huge break. Your well-being is the most important. Would your parents care If you put jobs and college on the back burner for awhile?