This is my new account… I haven’t been on here in a couple years.
I’m 18 now and in my first semester of school, studying math and stats. Let me say, I feel like a fucking idiot. My boyfriend is succeeding and I am soooooo proud of him and his accomplishments, but, it makes me feel like a complete dumb ass. I’m wondering how I even got into this program.
I know first year grades are your worse, but I truly thought I could do better.
I recently relapsed with my anorexia and with the add on stress of school and my family falling apart, I really want to kill myself… really fucking badly. I just need someone to talk to. I haven’t wanted to kill myself in years and I cant believe I’m back here.
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Although I’ve never dealt with eating disorders myself I’ve had a lot of very close friends who’ve lived through it. I have however been struggling with failing to meet my expectations in school for the first time in my life. I’ve also never contemplated suicide until the last few months and I can’t imagine getting through that and then dealing with it again like you are. I don’t know how much I can really help but I’ll do whatever I can to help you out if you’d like.
One of my few friends was a dumbass for 4 years through uni studying with me (math and stats, just like you). I was the smart one.
Now she’s in her first year of grad school and I’m stuck in a dead end job. You don’t have to be the smartest to be successful. You have to be the most tenacious.
If you want to talk email or kik me
Kik: Cancersurvivor05
Email: bobs65325@gmail.com
I’m available to chat if you want, as I mentioned before I’m on Discord