I get jealous very easily. It’s not quite jealousy I guess, but every time something or some else makes my boyfriend happy I get depressed. He’ll have a fun time with his friends and I get upset. He’ll have a nice experience with some weed and I’ll get upset. He’ll look at the cat and say “Wow, what a cute cat,” and I’ll get upset. Don’t even get me started on porn, It makes me feel like utter garbage.
the logical part of my brain is screaming at me. these things are normal and I shouldn’t be upset by him enjoying other things, yet I still feel like shit. If he has all of these other things that fill every possible gap that I’m filling then why does he need me? how am I important?
I guess I’m stuck on the fact that I don’t need anything or anyone else to be happy. a night with him and him alone is plenty, and I would be satisfied with just that the rest of my life. My boyfriend needs more then just me, he needs a social life outside of me, he needs experiences outside of me. I just always translate these emotions as me loving him more than he loves me and that kills me. anyone feel similar, or have gone through types of jealousy before? I’ve tried and tried to get over it but I can’t.
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I had a few relationships, pretty much all of them like that and they never lasted long, I guess from my side I tend to cling too much and later everything loses it’s specialty and dullness soon steps in. I don’t have a solution, I’ve just stopped trying having relationships, but if you do find a way, let me know 🙂
I think you need to practice the art of stepping back and letting things be what they are. I guess what I’m trying to say is, don’t be jealous of cats. That just fuels their murderous rage.
I guess that’s all it really takes, I just find it hard for some reason. Writing it out helps a lot, I know how ridiculous it is when I do that.
It’s not ridiculous. We all at times want to be the gravity that binds a person to earth. It’s just important to see it in context. You may not realize it, but you have the same branching relationships with everything and everyone around you, all the time. It’s not bad. If you like him, then letting him be his own person should be important. Just as important as him allowing you to be your own person.
I usually don’t feel like that, but I know the feeling. Maybe it’s not the things he does that makes you feel that but how he talks about them or portrays them. Hell, maybe it’s just HIM. You may be in honeymoon phase and not understand.
He’s like a toddler he’s drawn into experiences to explore..
You also should experience more than just being with him.
I don’t know, though.
I get jealous alot too but for good reasons. My exs had a habit of cheatin on me and i begged for their attention. So now i stay away from relationships cuz it tears me up inside