I was rejected by the independent living faculty. What a waste of time. This is why I never get my hopes up. Guess it doesn’t matter. I’m one step closer to suicide. YAY! I posted months that I didn’t want to live past 30. I want to go out peacefully. Want the exit bag method expect I’ll use a cap mask because it looks easier. I’m only happy when I’m sleeping. Any advice on how to sneak the air tank and stuff without my parents noticing. Thinking about having the parts shipped to the post office, might have to ship each part to a separate post office to avoid suspicion. What do you guys think? This world ain’t for me.
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Dude I tried everything I’ve tried at least 27 times 27 fucking times in just the past two months I want out more than anybody you gotta ask yourself is that what u want cuz ill tell you this that’s all I think about why do you want out?
I’m always stuck in the same position. I’ll never have my own life. Never going to be independent. Can’t do it.
Isn’t independent living facilities for old people?
So are you almost 30? Why would your parents look through your mail? I tried that but then it was cancelled by my parents, but I was 21 and it was their money. If they aren’t creepily all into your business and watching you constantly (even though you are a grown ass adult and can make your own choices) I read many reports of the store helium not working. You have to order it from chemistry websites or welding equipment sites etc. You don’t have to use just helium if you can find other gases easier. Any noble gas will do. I fantasized about finding a flower shop to use their helium tank to fill an empty tank but apparently those are diluted down. Then I thought about getting one from a party store, but those ought fail as well and as well as walmarts I have read many fail stories. I was looking into “Hiachi Method” the other day. Sorry mods! I used the M word.
I feel as if I had my own money I would have a split second exit no problems involved, seems that won’t happen for me. I’m trying to get disability just for that reason…. after already trying to go into real work and being denied. They might deny me. Oh well. Lmao. Like you just another reason to exacerbate the final outcome. I’d probably buy a car to my name 500$ fill up tank. Drive as far as I could and come up with a method on the way. I can’t decide what I would do if I wasn’t in a desperate situation. I have the desperate situation plan pinned down perfect. But if I wasn’t desperate and could choose any method I wonder what it would be. I’d like to experience them all. Drowning. Bleed out. Overdose. Bullet. Whiskey and pills. Cliff diving. I don’t know!! Big decision.
I find this fascinating. So you’re only like 30 and willing to live in an independent living facility for the rest of your life? Is that because you think you can’t take care of yourself? This is interesting because I stay with family now and an independent facility would be a very last resort. I know I couldn’t make it on my own and I’d rather be somewhere like that instead of homeless.
I don’t think I have the type of money/insurance needed for that though. I envy my aunt who lives in a senior citizen apartment for wealthy people. She’s living better then me and she’s decades older. She works out a lot, has 3 free meals that’s included with her rent, walks in the park, has a full life. Then she asks me what I’ve been doing and I’m like “Uhhhhh…”
Pathetic.