I don’t know how to make it through tomorrow.
In the last twelve years my cats have saved my life numerous times when I couldn’t handle it anymore. They are the sole reason I live. They need me and I could never abandon them.
Just over a week ago my oldest baby passed away and I haven’t stopped crying since. I still have two babies who need me very much which is the reason I’m still here typing these words, but I don’t know how to do it.
I don’t care about anything anymore. I don’t care about work, I don’t care about school, I don’t care about my passion for hiking, I don’t care about taking my meds. I just don’t care.
I want to end it all tonight. I don’t want to wake up another day and do this all over again. But I will do this all over again because I have two furry beings who depend on me.
I don’t know how to make it. I just don’t.
3 comments
Your compassion for helpless creatures speaks a lot about you. I have felt a loss like yours, and like you, I poured my remaining strength into caring for my other babies (and 1 or 2 more I rescued since). It got me through the worst, and I can honestly say I’m ok now. I know no words can ease your sadness right now, but I hope it helps to know you’re not alone and I hope your other babies keep you warm tonight.
I know what your going through. I had to put my dog down 2weeks ago and I just can’t stop crying inside like I just truly want to die now. I got no one to ride with me in the car or go to the beach. No one that is happy to see me after work. I have cats to and they are great but they aren’t always around. Just the other day though one of my cats come back after 8months away I have 3. Sadly it’s gone again I’m sure someone else has been looking after him and maybe the other 2 cats have scared him away from me. He’s the oldest though. I only got the two other cats/kittens because I thought my Harry was dead.
Yeah my real life are my animals too the only beings that truly make me happy. I’m sorry for your loss. Just snuggle up to the babies that you still have. They need you their mummy. It’s selfish to leave your babies in this cruel world without you.
So sorry about your oldest one last week. That must hurt a lot. As an owner of two cats myself, thanks for your dedication to them
They’re wonderful friends.