I have made a consiousness decision to die. I don’t know when. I know how. I just keep procrastinating. I tried writing my goodbyes but I can’t keep a straight thought anymore. I have 1 person I need to talk to. I keep putting it off. I know they would do anything in their power to stop me. It will just have to be a last minute phone call. If anything I just wish there is nothing after death. Imagine that? Just nothing. I don’t want to meet those I left behind again. I don’t want to answer why Because I can barely answer it myself. I don’t want heaven or hell or even a long sleep. I want to not exist at all. Forever. No bliss or pain. No nothing. Good bye to those who know where to find my goodbyes and read this. Love you Maddy.
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I don’t think you have to worry about there being nothing after death. I’m convinced of it. No spirit, soul, god, heaven, hell or reincarnation. I don’t say this in an angry or negative way. I say it because there has never, in human history, been any proof of soul or afterlife. When you die it’s like a candle flame being extinguished. That’s it. Done. Sooooo…ya better make the most of what you’re doing right now cause it’s all you get.
I know exactly how you feel
How?
I understand how you feel. You say you want to die but don’t state reasons why..