Hello,
I am new to this website. I found it randomly while browsing the internet, don’t ask me how I found this, but it interests me. I am an outcast here because I have never attempted suicide, planned suicide, or suffered from real suicidal thoughts. I’ve felt depressed before, I have anxieties, and I’ve day-dreamed about how life is pointless at times and I wish I was never born, etc. etc. But it doesn’t count.
The only self-harm I ever do is chew my fingernails off and pick at my dead skin til I bleed. And that’s just because I cannot stop fidgeting.
So, why am I here? I’ve felt hopeless. I’ve felt unwanted. I’ve felt unimportant. I’ve felt stupid. I’ve felt self conscious. I’ve envied other people who are more social than me, appear smarter, prettier, stronger, worthier, liked, etc. But I also woke up from it a little, little-by-little as I get older (I’m 25 right now), and I’ve realized how deep it is embedded in my head. My hope is that I could talk to some of you feeling horrible about yourselves and be able to make you smile.
Let me know if I can help.
-B
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A lot of us are a little beyond this point. But, I’m glad you want to do it lol.
You are only beyond the point if you succeed in your suicide.
Don’t give up.
Yes indeed, a positive comment. Coming here and posting about the struggles of life and finding people in similar positions helps. Why would anyone reach out if they had already set their mind? There is still hope left in all these posts.
Here people can talk freely. No bullshit masquerade. Straight to the point. People that can relate because they have experienced these concepts of sadness that can barely be explained to the non-afflicted.
After reading through the posts this seems like the one of the last bastions for the hopeless. Still a barrier to overcome. There is hope scattered all over the place.
I had to look up the word “bastions”. What a vocabulary! I can’t tell if it was a positive comment, but thanks for replying. <3
That’s very courteous of you.
going to leave my contact details if you feel like talking, completely understandable if you don’t want to talk off site though.
Email: octr.sp@outlook.com (Will try to check)
Kik: Octrpus (Mostly Viable)
Skype: octr.imvu@outlook.com (Semi Viable
Discord: Paris#0747 (24/7 excluding sleep time)
Telegram: Octrpus (Semi-Viable)
DeviantArt: https://octrpus.deviantart.com/
Steam: http://steamcommunity.com/id/Octr/
Imvu: Sonar (insanely inactive)
Let me know if you contact me through a method that isn’t Kik or discord since I would need to go and actively check.
Or if you have a different preferred method of contact.
Thank you. I think I’ve seen your posts, you like reaching out to others and that’s great.
Hi Mllekathy
Would be nice to talk to someone — thanks for braving coming on here — it’s always good to have a change in the dynamics of a place, online or otherwise. There can be a huge amount of comfort in relating/talking to other severely mentally ill people who’ve ‘been there’ in some way or other but I think most of us are often not really in the right state of mind to be able guide others.
I’d love it if you’d contact me, even if just for a couple of emails. You can email me at kimonomyhouse90@gmail.com. Thank you. L