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by CARLOSPEJUAN

If you’re chronically depressed, if your life sucks, if you hate yourself, please don’t give up. I was just there, and thus every part of it is relatable. This is a battle you may face more than once, but it’s Worth the shot at winning.I don’t think my story will be yours, but please use your battle as a pencil to write your own on life’s notebook.
I’m just coming out of it, I’m just learning how far behind I am and that I must raise again on the eschelons of life. I’m just realizing I’m causing a lot of hurt for me, and more importantly those around me. I’m glad I’ve realized it, and what to do about it. I still feel a little down, still are tired a lot and still have trouble with many things. However, with the bounds of depression gone I am now free to crawl and maybe some day I’ll soar through the cosmos of success. For now crawl I must until I’m physiologically ready.

I had no idea how much was going on. The symptoms are brutal in hindsight. The mental fog from other conditions essentially multiplies. My sleep patterns are messed up on accident. The easiest of tasks is so exhausting TO INCLUDE fun activities. Nothing is fun, NOTHING is worth it, NOTHING will be enough. When I was alone sometimes it scream, I’d cry, I’d relive painful scenarios in my mind that couldn’t be solved, nor could they affect me. Knowing this, knowing that the Monday this attitude this way of life was unhealthy and condemned, banned EXILED Even by society, I was incapable of pretending like most, to include some who are in this website. I felt like I head tried EVERYTHING. I even had a plan to commit suicide. When I tell you I KNOW it sucks, I know the pain, trust me I do. And it may come back in an hour, a day years even, but having felt sanity makes the fight worth it.

Depression is a heavy burden, please don’t carry it alone, seek help yes I KNOW you tried, I KNOW you are tired but trust me it’s with the fight. We need you, your friends need you, your family needs you and most importantly you need you. If love isn’t enough to Keep you think about hate. All of your haters will still be around. All the people who talked badly, demeaned you and made you feel badly about your shortcomings will live, and they will survive and maybe be someone in life. No, you can do this and you should. Screw that! If your enemies can do it, you certainly can. Think about it, they can’t even cut you some slack at your down points why should they reap the fruits of life and resilience? Please address the problem, seek a solution and do your best while you’re around here. People know you’re struggling, but if you try it may be with it. I know this won’t work for all, some may be lost regardless and that’s ok, I’m glad you fought this far.
If you’ve read this far, thank you. You are worth while.

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checherose555 10/22/2017 - 11:57 am

Thank you for writing that.
How did you help your depression? Did you see someone ?

CARLOSPEJUAN 10/22/2017 - 12:23 pm

Discovered the root cause was ADHD, treated (through trial and error) and with the last treatment after months I just felt better one day.

Timel3ssDecay 10/22/2017 - 7:55 pm

what kind of treatment are you referring to? Medical i.e. Pills, therapy?

CARLOSPEJUAN 10/22/2017 - 12:33 pm

Also have to point out I pushed everyone out of my life toxic or not. Then the toxic people were EASY to spot. I started doing fun things alone (this counted as excersise). Changed my diet. Started working on the things I hated about me. Which had never worked for me before so idk if it’s noteworthy.

Timel3ssDecay 10/22/2017 - 8:08 pm

“Started working on the things I hated about me. ”

I’ve never been able to do that. Whenever I improve something, another thing deteriorates. So, it all gets frustrating and annoying after a while

hellfire187 10/22/2017 - 1:14 pm

Easy to say…

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