Wake Up

  October 12th, 2017 by Katki

Lied to the doctor ..Told him, I feel great, mood is good, sleep is good, all I know is that I want off of these damned meds once and for all… I’ve lost over 20lbs since I came off the last ones and I’m not in a fog. I fucking hate being a zombie .. just to survive?? That’s not good enough anymore.

I am so fucking lonely it hurts to breathe.. I can’t figure out what to do – I’ve tried to ‘put myself out there’ and the one connection I managed to make doesn’t seem to want to talk to me.  The crying starts when I lay my head on my pillow, til I fall asleep.. and then I continue to wake up – WHY DO I HAVE TO WAKE UP??  Can I just PLEASE sleep?

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