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What happened? (Rant)

by CARLOSPEJUAN

It’s so hard to exist. But I’m working on it. It just sucks that I wanted to die next year and out of nowhere now I don’t. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!? So now I’m set back 3 years because of that, I’ve carelessly ruined my reputation and I have serious Brain, intestinal and overall physiological damage because of this. This is kind of inconvenient only because it’s (wanting to live) something that should have ALWAYS been there. FUCK MY LIFE RN. For real. WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO!? UUUUGGGHHH.
I’m gonna start from scratch, rebuild myself and I just hope I can make it to my goals. The most upsetting part is that losing my job was convenient under the suicide plan, now I’m closer than ever to do that, and it’s not AT ALL an option. I want to swing from the chandelier, but there’s actual reasons for it now. I will follow my own advice, I must first see what bothers me, and then I’ll change it. My problems have solutions except for one which may just be a blessing in disguise. By now I’m probably mentally challenged because of all I’ve done and it’s gonna be a challenge to regain my strength. But, I know I can do it. I Know I CAN DO IT! AND YOU CAN DO IT TOO!!!! <3 I’ve known that my coworkers and friends have been reading these notes. If you know me In Real Life XD I KNOW I’M A LOSER STFU at least now I can try!

You Can Do It

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Urm8451n 10/11/2017 - 1:24 am

I’m not one of your coworkers or etc, but I know that if you want to rebuild your life, you actually can.
Now I know too that you want to rebuild it.
The thing is you should know that if you don’t succeed, it is ONLY because you gave up.
Good luck, stay strong and be brave, I know you can do it. Notify me if any advice needed

CARLOSPEJUAN 10/11/2017 - 2:09 am

I need A LOT of advice, because I don’t know what to do. I may think I know but I’ve Never executed change in my life at this level.

Urm8451n 10/11/2017 - 2:44 pm

I just uploaded my last post here, you can go read there some advices.
I have got most of them summed up.
Just go by that, and don’t EVER GIVE UP.

Meev 10/11/2017 - 3:55 am

There is nothing you cant fix if your persist and expect there to be obstacles. Good luck to you 🙂

Pandaren 10/11/2017 - 8:04 am

Good luck.

PS: Don’t be me. I’m delusional.

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