Afraid of love

  November 13th, 2017 by lonewolf23

Why am i afraid of love? I enjoy talking to her and bonding but for some reason i can’t allow myself to get past a certain stage with women. It’s like the initial spark is easy to take in, however i can never make it something serious. I always cut myself off from these connections naturally. Its not because i want to but i do it because i fear of what it could turn out to be. The tought of being in love with somebody sounds nice but it also scares me. I think I’m afraid of allowing myself to be happy with someone and enjoying this journey with somebody else at my side. I’ve done this many times but i wanna give myself a chance this time. I’m not shy or anything like that. In fact its super easy to talk to girls for me but I tend to keep things at a flirty level. I always say to myself “this time I’m down to let her in” but then my old self gets in my way and puts a “danger” sign in front of me. Its almost like I’m expecting for the relationship to go bad before i ever gave it a chance to blossom. I’ve even had women in the past ask me out and I reject them not because i don’t like em but because i feel like I wouldn’t be able to handle the love. So when i tell em “it’s not you, it’s me” they actually think i just don’t enjoy their company but i actually do. I guess I’m an idiot for being this way because i always regret it for not giving myself a chance. I have a feeling this has to do with how my parents suck when it comes to relationships. They can never stay with one partner. They have juggled through a couple already so maybe I’m afraid that I’ll end up like them.

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