“when people ask you to express your feelings, they don’t mean your actual feelings. they mean the feelings that they want you to have. because people can’t deal with dark or scary or weird. they want you to smile and say ‘yeah i’m fine, everything’s great’ because then they can go on with their boring lives and never think about you again.”
i’m so tired of saying that i’m “fine”, “tired”, and “okay”. i don’t mean any of it.
what i mean is, “i just want a break. i don’t want to be here. i am so over everything. you can’t help me, i’m not worth your help. i can’t do this anymore. and, i’m just so lost. i don’t care anymore, about anything. i’ve lost all hope in life. i’m a burden and i can’t even handle it. counseling doesn’t help. none of it helps. nothing helps. i’m empty.”
i’m a mess.
WHY DO PEOPLE ASK IF I’M FINE, IF THEY CLEARLY DON’T FUCKING MEAN IT? THEY DON’T FUCKING CARE! NOBODY FUCKING CARES!
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Wouldn’t be able to put this in a better context than it already is.
Exactly people don’t want to deal with dark so they force you to say you’re fine, I tried opening upthose who took me seriously were like you’ll be fine tell me you wont do anything stupid while the other ones were like heh drama queen get over yourself.
Idk what to say well.
Well said that’s exactky right ?
The answer I’d like to give sometimes is no I a not fucking fine. can you kill me please? But then I would be considered crazy so I just go with im ok