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I’m about to be suspended or expelled from college, even though I have a 3.8 GPA, decent extracurriculars, blah blah blah. I’m suppose to graduate in May. My (ex) roommate called the cops on me because she could not handle verbal embarrassment, and lied saying it was assault. My friends came down for the weekend, the first time anyone’s really visited me in my three years here. I got into a bad fight with my roommate back in February. I was friends with this one girl for say a year or so, and I confronted her about blocking me on twitter, which sounds stupid. She was mad at me because I walked into my apartment and said with “attitude” — “I’ll guess I’ll just go back to the library”. My roommate was a transfer and didn’t have friends, so I was not expecting anyone to be at my apartment. I was super sick, since I was getting chronically sick due to stress, mainly from neurobiology, and my nose was running and I just wanted to do work in the comfort of my own bed. I even said I didn’t ask my roommate if anyone was over so it’s not like I could kick them out, so fair point. But this girl had to get all offended, since she’s just that selfish, saying she’s never seen me snap and that it made her uncomfortable. We made up and I was still blocked like 3 days later on twitter, which again sounds stupid but that’s the petty kind of shit those people are into. She ended up saying “I want to fucking punch you” and I say “do it” and she BARGES across the apartment into my room, so I grabbed her by the hair and slammed her into the corner of my bed, and then the fight was broken up. Probably not as dramatic as that sounds, though (she may have hit me, I can’t remember). We were all suppose to go to a tailgate together, and my roommate invited her over that morning. After the whole incident, no one even bothered to ask if I was okay, not even a simple text. My roommate could have been like yeah, I’m at Denny’s with her now and I’m coming back after, or literally just say anything. But she didn’t, the girl posted a picture mocking me on Instagram with *my* friends who went, and tweeted about how she would have beaten the shit out of me. I posted a tweet saying something sort of similar, and my roommate decides to reply to it saying I’m completely lying and that’s not what happened, further public embarrassment. I ended up trying to fight those two plus one other girl (3 on 1) around 11pm, a whole 11 hours after the incident and no one yet asked if I was okay. That was broken up as well, no one was hurt or anything. I kept trying to explain to my roommate that I felt betrayed, whatever, and she legit did NOT understand. So that was frustrating. We agreed that the one friend would not come over when I’m at the apartment, which is fair. Her mom ended up calling the counseling center on me for whatever the fuck reason, probably because my roommate lied about what really happened, because why make herself look bad? Blame it on others. They sent university police over and I was studying for my neuro exam (very stressful) and they fucking wouldn’t leave me alone and I was getting more and more frustrated they were taking up my precious time (I studied like 6+ hours for every class we had, 2x a week).
Now go to September, I had to retake the GRE. It was the first time I was going to look at GRE stuff since the last time I took it, a whole two weeks before that. I was going to take a four hour long practice test, and went to the library. Although, it was 1pm and they closed at 5, so I barely had enough time. I was less than pleased to see the small parking lot mostly blocked off for some event because I didn’t have time to drive around and look for parking. I just moved the cones and parked where I always park, and university officers were like nah move and I was like ok then let me take one of your “service vehicle” spots, and some random dude was like I’m leaving just take my spot, and so I did. The cop preceded to come over to my car and keep going about whatever, and I was dismissive because I didn’t have time for that. I walked 50 feet away and realized I forgot something in my car, and I see the cop taking pictures of my car. I ask him why, and he refuses to answer. So I got angry and said “mean” shit, like how I’m about to apply for PhD programs and he went to police academy for 6 months, and that he wasn’t even a real cop. He ended up reporting me to student affairs, and LYING about a good portion of it. He said I “failed to comply” which doesn’t make sense since I moved my car. He said I moved it to another “blocked off” spot, yet I clearly moved it to where the dude was like “take my spot”. So the dean called me in and I got my “sanctions”, which was writing a 5 page personal statement on goals for the year, what I want to do, how my behavior will affect me, resources available, whatever. And I had to get an anger management assessment, but it wasn’t due until November.
So my friends came down to visit on Halloween weekend. That morning my roommate and I got into a text fight (lol) because I heard her drunk ass go get water and go back in her room, and then when I went out to make breakfast say 5 minutes later, she opens her door and is like omg I’m still drunk from last night. And I’m like okay I can’t talk I have to do homework before class. She shuts her door kinda hard and starts playing music rather loudly, so I text her about it asking if she could turn the music down since I just said I’m doing homework because I know she’s doing it on purpose since I rarely hear her music through a closed door. She continued to text me three times over the span of like an hour while I was in class, and then like went off on me about dumb shit, how I’m trying to “control” her. Because I asked her to not have someone over on a Friday night (the week prior) because I worked Saturday from 8am-5pm, and I asked her very nicely. She had someone over anyway and was like “don’t get mad, but ___ is coming over”, which I found rather disrespectful. And she also went on about how I just “decide to do my homework on the kitchen counter” all the time, which, number one, we have a really small apartment: 2 rooms and a combined kitchen/living room; and number two, I almost always do my homework in the library anyway because she blatantly disrespects when I am OBVIOUSLY doing work and continues to talk to me for like 15 minutes about stupid shit.
Anyway, I ended up blocking her number, and then blocking her on twitter after she sub-tweeted me (again, lol @ twitter). My friends got here around 5pm, and it was a 5 hour drive. I was working until 6, and they came to pick up my key so they could put their stuff in my apartment. Before I even got there, my roommate comes out to them and is like “sorry if it’s awkward, her and I are not on good terms” and continues to babble about the problem as if my friends really cared. I didn’t see her until that night, and we had her door shut the whole time she was at work because her room smells like cat shit all the time. She comes back drunk at 2am and kept coming out on the balcony and being annoying. Like you made it clear we still had beef why are you trying to come out to my friends and I? She was going on and on and I said something about how she got my sloppy seconds. Back a year ago, I kicked a guy out of my room because I invited him over to strictly chill, and he tried to hook up, so I literally was like get out. He goes into her room and is like “gimme neck” and they’ve been fuck buddies ever since. She was literally humiliated and then refused to close her door to her room, even though we wanted it shut because it smelled like cat shit. We ended up tacking a sheet over her doorway to filter the air. & by the way, my friends were the ones complaining about the cat shit; I smelled it, but it didn’t bother me to the degree it did them since I work at an animal shelter.
Saturday morning I had my neuroscience lab meeting from 10am-1pm, and while I was gone, my roommate continued to come out to my friends and drag the issue out, trying to explain her “side” or whatever the fuck and said she understood why I was so mad at her in February. We both kinda just made passing verbal comments at each other all weekend, whatever. My friends left Sunday afternoon and I didn’t see her until Monday night, which we didn’t talk. I was out of town all Tuesday, and was about to play xBox and my roommate is like “[said friend from February] is coming over and they’re playing wii”. So I said okay and went in my room to paint my nails and listen to a Skrillex mix. Now the said friend really really hates EDM so of course it bothered her that I was playing music in my room. They kept turning the TV up and then put on their own music, because not gonna lie, it’s hard to filter out heavy bass. At 12:30am, an officer comes to my door and serves me papers saying my roommate got a peace order against me. He didn’t even know what was going on or that we were roommates, so nothing was really clear. It said I had our temporary peace hearing at 10:30am the next morning, and I was like uh I have class and he said there’s no penalty if I don’t go. She said I was threatening to punch her, and all of this other physical stuff that didn’t happen. If anything, she was telling my friends that I should “watch out” because she’ll “beat the fucking shit out of me”. The next Wednesday morning, I’m doing homework before class and hear my roommate going on and on to her mom about how I was purposely listening to music or whatever, and I tried to open her door and was like that’s not what happened, like I don’t know why you’re saying that, I literally just went in my room and said okay when you said you were having that girl over, and that we had a no physical contact order, not a no talking one. I was not really even mean in saying this stuff, and she called the officers again because she was “threatened” and scared to leave her room, yet when she got off the phone with them she went out to the laundry machine twice. (I was still sitting doing homework). The officers never came, and I hysterically went to the counseling center because I didn’t understand what a peace order was, and why she called the cops and whatever. They had me go to court to ask the parameters on my peace order, and I got served more papers from the temporary peace hearing saying I wasn’t allowed in my own apartment until the final peace hearing a week later. I couldn’t even go get any of my stuff, and had to have my friend go in to at least get my cat and his food.
At the final peace hearing, everything got dropped because even the judge was like “this is a burden of my time”, after publicly embarrassing her asking how often she uses social media per day (she said “a lot”) and then asked if she spends more time on social media than she does doing homework. You already know the answer to that. At the end of the whole hearing, she goes “I’m okay with us living together”, so obviously I was gonna move out because why would I want to live with her? I also had a charge of “failure to comply to peace order” for “entering my apartment”, but in court she said it was because of that Wednesday morning, before I got even served papers saying I wasn’t allowed in my own apartment.
I got a note from the school saying it was a no-contact thing and we weren’t allowed to talk, even after the final peace hearing until the school had a hearing for us to determine if we broke student conduct. I went and talked to the dean about it, and was indifferent, since I was like uh but the final peace order was denied yet the no-contact school one was still in effect. She didn’t believe me that I was lying and that there wasn’t any physical contact. When I was on the phone with my dad that morning I was telling him how I was moving out and whatever, and she comes out and is like “don’t take any of my stuff”. I come back to the apartment later that night to start packing some things (I was/am staying with my ex), and my roommate took everything into her room. Utensils, utensil holder, plates, bowls, cooking supplies, literally EVERYTHING in the kitchen, even down to the toaster. Yet I’m the one moving out. I called my dad again after seeing that, especially considering I had him dig up the original receipt from Walmart when we first moved in so I would only take shit that is mine. Like her and I had some “matching” things, like bowls, mine in pink hers in blue. EVERYTHING. Like I said I was on the phone with my dad, and I did scream at her through her locked door being like what the literal fuck you’re not even the one moving out. And then while on the phone with my dad however much longer later, the cops knock on my door AGAIN and I was like yeah we had a peace order which got denied, and she literally took all of my shit, and that I had to be somewhere at 8, so they let me go while “waiting for the dispatcher”. I went back to the counseling center for my actual anger assessment the next day, and the therapist tells me that I’m manipulative, and all of this shit when I just kept saying I just want someone to listen to me and stuff. She’s basing it off of when I saw her once say two years ago, since my original therapist suddenly didn’t come back. The original therapist just kind of let me talk, free-association style. This therapist was like what do you want out of therapy? Saying I needed a goal, which I didn’t have one. I just wanted someone to talk to. I was kind of upset at that and then never went back. I was not mean or anything, just frustrated and teary because I seriously needed to talk to someone. So I’m “manipulative when I don’t get what I want”.
So now I’m at an annual international conference a few hours away with my favorite professor until Wednesday, and then we’re going to have a hearing sometime when I’m back. I’m trying to have one of my friends from home come and testify, as will my best friend at school who was also there (just not for the part when my roommate talks shit about me when I’m not even home). My ex is hopefully going to come and explain how I have been sabotaged, harassed, and disrespected constantly over the last ten months. But I’m sure I’m going to at least get suspended. I am on school “probation” until I graduate as another sanction of the parking lot incident, which is suspension for a year.
So now I have a criminal charge, awaiting court in a couple weeks over the “failure to comply”, I’m about to be suspended or expelled, and I have a criminal record so I won’t pass a background check for applying to grad schools. But I guess it’s fine because she got her “revenge”, and I’m basically gonna just jump off the parking garage after I get suspended. I hope she’s happy.
EDIT: in the police report, the first thing she said was that “we got into a text fight that morning and then it was done and over with, and then at 2am my friends and I harassed her” …. and so on
But again, no one cares. Just as no one cares that I’m about to kill myself.
Wah I’m having a pity party, bite me.
14 comments
First I want to say Wow! What’s story but must feel really good that you vented that out here
Anyways this ***** roommate of yours reminds me of my sister who I haven’t talked to in almost 2 years despite us living together. My sister She has Called the cops on me a few times recently for yelling at her.
You seem really devoted to your studies then you do messing around and out partying like your ***** roommatebwhich seems like she’s the one who’s manipulative drama queen and I think she is Perfect 2 see that therapist because your therapist & her seem to be exactly alike.
and regarding a criminal record I don’t see anything in any of these being as a criminal record LOL you have to be indicted and be sentenced to have a criminal record at least from the way I see it there’s no probable cause and you aren’t handcuffed in any way regardless for the restraining order against you going to the apartment at the time
Look you have your studies you have support from your ex and you definitely seem to have contact and a good relationship with your parents so those are all pluses and getting out of that apt ASAP is the most important thing now let her take whatever the hell she took and just walk away once you get all successful you can buy all those things without any hassles. trying to get it back from retarded people like your roommate who’s so manipulative making it seem like she’s a good person where everyone else is the bad this is just what the world is today those kinds of people go nowhere in life they are just ass kissers
I just realized I spend some time reading your post that my coffee got cold LOL I’m blaming that on your roommate not you I guess a description of her is that bad that I did not want to drink my coffee while reading lol
thanks for responding, i didn’t honestly think anyone would read this. as for the criminal thing, it comes up on judiciary case search and on background checks
I really wanted to live with my ex and I found out today his new roommate moved in, and it was because she had shitty roommates and i’m assuming that’s the apartment I’m going to have to move into and I just can’t even handle it anymore. no one who matters believes me, at the school because i’ve already had other incidences and i’m so fucking trapped and i just don’t want to be here anymore.
and his roommate is attractive and that’s what made me lose my shit. granted I asked him and i’m glad he told me the truth, he’s really not an asshole like that and would do anything I guess but it still broke me
🙂 Your welcome no problem I actually enjoyed your story I love reading people’s vented words. For someone who likes being alone and focused on school away from everybody you sure have a lot of attention coming from the people around you. that kind of thing is a complete nightmare just like you trying to park the car only to be harassed by a cop. or simply you just going upstairs into your room to study only to be distracted. Of course you’re in this state when this is all nothing more than a sense of bullying and it seems like your school isn’t doing anything about it but pointing you as the wrong this is just the way I see it I’ve been bullied most of my life even when I put up a fight it’s a lost cause and worst of all is when the abuser is the one who pretends to be abused and everyone takes that persons side that’s not fair the best thing to do is to walk away officially but now you need a roof over your head and to complete your PhD. I hope you make it
Well no one believes me, not even the dean. Like I get it, how it looks, but no one will believe me. I’m not thinking worst case scenario I’m looking at the sanctions I got a couple weeks ago from the cop incident. And they’re not wrong, I did go off on him, but like maybe I wouldn’t have that issue if my roommate wasn’t a dumb ****. Not even the therapist believes me, because apparently I just got upset at the whole goal policy, as if they’ve never seen someone in crisis before. You’d think these people would maybe pick up on the fact that I’ve needed help for a while and I’ve almost brought myself to the hospital a couple times recently. But everyone looks at me like I’m this horrible person and my roommate has literally made me question reality and whether or not I’m delusional because of all the shit I’ve been through over the months, and how shittily I’ve been treated you start to think, “wow, maybe it is all my fault” and I’ve been saying for months I literally don’t feel like I can distinguish what’s real and what’s not. I kinda told the therapist I’m suicidal anyway but in a passive way, like I didn’t have a method, but now I do. Oh what can happen in a week.
anywho, like I said, I fucked up the post reply.
@sadlife, I know, but no one believes me. I mean I guess what I wrote in the “wrong” reply is relevant anyway, I think I morphed your two replies into my one reply because I’m just dumb lol. Idek how to prove that she’s been bullying me since she’s the “””””victim””””
Dude, what is this college you attend? I swear a Tarantino movie would go easier on the violence.
stupid small university in Maryland, hence I’m able to do prestigious things due to less competition
I think you are just looking at the worst possible outcomes and just assuming that is what is going to happen. Which makes sense. Your future is being threatened something you have been working your ass off for years to achieve is threatened because of some petty vindictive bullshit from someone who is probably just jealous of you. Of course you are freaked out and stressed out and thinking of the worst possible outcomes. Could they decide to suspend you or expel you? well sure that could happen. Its not really likely though, even with your history of minor infractions. Most likely they wanted to just threaten you with the most extreme consequences to scare you. You only have 6 months left until you graduate. They will probably make you write another paper on goals and plans and how you will try harder to change your behavior. Maybe make you go to more assessments or get more counseling or anger management. It doesn’t seem likely that they will give you a really severe punishment over a bunch of petty domestic crap. Just a bunch of she said vs she said drama that a judge already said was a waste of his and the courts time. That at least shows a pattern of her harassing you and frivolously calling the cops.
It would help if you showed some humility in the meeting and maybe focused on things you were going to do to try to make positive changes counseling new medications whatever. You are a psych major be manipulative like that one counselor accused you of being and just tell them whatever they need to hear to get yourself a lesser punishment. Tell them you already found a new apartment and you have her blocked on all social media and you won’t have any contact with her and you just want to finish your last semester and go on to grad school. They really don’t want to do anything to mess up your future, they just don’t want you causing problems so convince them you won’t be a problem. Like you said you are a good student with a great gpa and extracurriculars. You have done prestigious things. You have tons of potential so that will definitely be a factor in your favor. You can definitely get through this. You have worked way to hard to give up or let that stupid roommate ruin your life. You can’t let her win.
As far as whatever legal record you have making it harder for you to get into grad school. Maybe you could see a lawyer about that maybe there is some legal way to clean up your record. Or maybe you could contact school admissions offices and see how much of an issue it really is for them. I think with the resume you have built up though a minor offense or petty crime won’t kill your application.
you shouldn’t think that no one cares what happens to you dead. You know that isn’t really true. I mean I have seen you on ****** for years. Even though we never really talked. I always had respect for you for how hard you worked, how committed you were to eerything you did. The way you always had your foster animals and spent time working at shelters and stuff. Generally you seemed nice and helpful towards other people. Even if you were kind of neurotic and histrionic at times and a bit narcissistic. Maybe you do have some anger issues and personality flaws you can work on, but so what. No one is perfect. A few flaws just help balance out all the good qualities. You always seemed nice enough though. and I always wanted to see you do well because you worked hard and you earned what you got and you deserved it. Anyway good luck and try not to do anything too rash or impulsive. People do like you and care what happens to you. Even those of us that don’t really know you that well.
Well no one believes me, not even the dean. Like I get it, how it looks, but no one will believe me. I’m not thinking worst case scenario I’m looking at the sanctions I got a couple weeks ago from the cop incident. And they’re not wrong, I did go off on him, but like maybe I wouldn’t have that issue if my roommate wasn’t a dumb ****. Not even the therapist believes me, because apparently I just got upset at the whole goal policy, as if they’ve never seen someone in crisis before. You’d think these people would maybe pick up on the fact that I’ve needed help for a while and I’ve almost brought myself to the hospital a couple times recently. But everyone looks at me like I’m this horrible person and my roommate has literally made me question reality and whether or not I’m delusional because of all the shit I’ve been through over the months, and how shittily I’ve been treated you start to think, “wow, maybe it is all my fault” and I’ve been saying for months I literally don’t feel like I can distinguish what’s real and what’s not. I kinda told the therapist I’m suicidal anyway but in a passive way, like I didn’t have a method, but now I do. Oh what can happen in a week.
–I accidentally replied to the wrong post, my b, i meant this for you apathy
Even if they don’t believe you, what you are accused of is so stupid and trivial. The judge didn’t take it seriously. He didn’t care if it was true or not he just saw it all as a waste of time. Stupid things happen with roommates, you are moving you won’t have anymore contact with her, its all over. If they don’t understand how much stress you are under and how devestating this all is for your mental state maybe you should just tell them. Show some weakness make it more about you needing help rather than you needing to be punished. Noone wants to see you jump off the parking garags, dead. You just need to come up with a plan for the meeting. Present your case in a way that makes them sympathetic towards you. All the stress of graduation and trying to find the right phd program and dealing with the crazg roommate harassment and how hard you are working. Its all been pretty traumatic and you haven’t handled it well. But you are still a very intelligent hard working person with a good future you have done a lot of good things at that school you have a lot of accomplishments and that will play into the decision. All the positive things you do they do give you some extra slack when you mess up.
As far as questioning reality. Sounds almost like gaslighting. Your roommate convinced everyone else of her version of events and keeps pushing her version so much that you question your own mind. You are not a horrible person. You work your ass off and then you mostly want to be left alone. Kinda bitchy or moody sometimes maybe lol but far from horrible.
bah posted that reply from an old account but really just go and see what happens don’t make impulsive decisions based on what you think might happen, or you expect to happen, or you are afraid will happen.
l guess, we’ll have to see l suppose. It’s just so much to handle and l won’t be able to apply to grad school and it was really nice being at this conference but going back to reality today brought back all the anxiety l was trying to escape from for a few days. It’s just hard cause legit no one is on my side, down to the therapist. l did tell my professor some of it today… about the school part since she’s known about court since it happened considering l work very closely with her. But she even said the counseling center is fucked up for telling me that so l guess l feel a little better but I’m just exhausted. My dad called my apartment as well and actually got a little bit of somewhere. Not sure if l included that whole shit show of being homeless and them having one 2×2 open in my complex and moving another girl into it without even telling me, when mine even involved police reports. l wanted to live with my ex in the only open 2×2 and they suddenly moved this random girl FROM A 4×4 in that apartment when there’s another open 4×4 or she could hav even freaking moved in MY OPEN 2×2. (2×2 means 2 bedroom 2 bathroom etc). Like my whole issue is l can’t get homework done because college students are here to party and are super disrespectful so how would having THREE other roommates make th e situation any better. Not to mention my horror experience sophomore year of being the one random roommate with three sorority girls who requested to be together and were indirectly kinda mean. Like me asking them to please tell me when they’re coming back on Halloween because l lost me key card and then blatantly not telling me regardless of me calling them over and over and over when l had work at 8am that morning. Or when they pre game for tailgates at 10am on weekends and have a bunch of people over with music. Or when l would get dirty looks walking into my own apartment when they had parties (never warned me about them either) from their friends as if l didn’t even belong in l own apartment. Ah l hate complaining like this I’ve honestly really just have had it.
Yea it is a lot to deal with. You probably won’t get along with your new roommates. For the reasons you mentioned. You aren’t very compatible with the whole chaotic college culture. You want to be left alone you want a quiet environment where you can study and do your work. You probably will end up with loud disrespectful roommates that get drunk all the time. You already said you do most of your studying and homework at the library and you might have to continue to do that. Its only 6 months dead you can get through it even if you don’t like them. You have already dealt with the worst kind of roommates so you can deal with whatever you get. If they suck just keep reminding yourself its only 6 months and then its only 5 months. and focus on your work. or even break it down into smaller time frames, you have thanksgiving in a couple weeks you can go home and get away from everything and just spend time with your family and try to take a break from all this stressful bullshit. Then you have christmas break next month and you can take a couple weeks off from everything.
Another thing maybe you could start writing a daily journal or something to help with that feeling that you are losing touch with reality. So when you start questioning your memory of events at least you have a fixed reference you can go back to. something tangible and real.
Even if you feel like you can’t actually apply to grad school, maybe you could still pick out all the programs you want to apply to and fill out all the applications and do all that work and have them ready to send in after you get through all this drama. Plan for the best rather than expecting the worst and it keeps you busy and gives you something more positive to focus on instead of stressing about the bad things that could happen.
You mentioned you were going to have a couple of your friends testify for you as character witnesses. Is there any chance that your professor friend would be willing to testify for you too? Or write a letter to the dean on your behalf? I think having someone in that position a faculty member that you work closely with speak up for you would be a pretty huge benefit to your case. I mean obviously she wouldn’t go on record criticizing the way the counseling center handled things. but maybe at least talking about how dedicated and hardworking you are what a great student you are and the accomplishments you have had and that you aren’t some evil psycho ***** like these other people try to portray you as