Back here again

  November 10th, 2017 by ShiSui

Long story short by the time I got to the GWB 7 cop cars pulled up and took me to the hospital. Didn’t even have a chance to be on the bridge to consider the leap. That was months ago, since then I’ve been continuing my meaningless life of frustration and stagnation. It’s 5am and I’ve been looking up hanging methods but too lazy and stupid to retain the info for applicable use. I came back because I do believe my death will not be natural, it will be Suicide, I can’t imagine just waiting years and years to die when all I do is stay home safe and have no risk of someone else killing me via car crash, robbery etc. eh whatever I’m at the same exact spot I was a year ago, now I’m 24 and if I am still alive by 30 I’m going the train route no questions asked. Also, what are your guys’s thoughts on partner pacts? Just curious, because this woman, not giving out a name, in her late 30s I believe, we met on a site, started texting me saying to fly over from Cali to NY to meet up with me to jump. I must really be a weirdo at texting because I must’ve scared her off she changed her mind and stopped texting me altogether. I guess even the hopeless get bad vibes from me….can’t belong anywhere…

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