Where am I going? I’m not completely sure? Should I go this way or that way? There are many directions, but paradoxically very few. You can do anything, but you feel like you are constrained to one thing. You can go anywhere, but somehow are stuck here. There are an infinite number of possibilities, but only one outcome. There is absolute freedom in this world, but at the same time a person has little to no control. It feels like you can go everywhere, but not really. There is no purpose, but if I go by the logic that a person creates their own purpose, then there are infinite reasons of purpose. Where are we going and for what reason? I guess I’m babbling. Nothing but nonsense. Maybe I’m crazy? Psychotic? Let’s leave and never comeback. That’s what I’ll do. Go in any direction and start walking. Walk and walk and walk and walk. Like a crazy person. Crazy and crazy and crazy and crazy. That’s all I am. Crazy. Nothing else, but crazy.
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
4 comments
Hey, looks like we share the same thought.. The seemingly infinite possibilities that realistically add up to a whole lot of nothing.. Unless, of course you happen to crap gold bars.. Then, you have options. If you are of a lower income, as I am, the windows of possibility drastically change. Call me crazy, (everyone else does haha) but if society gave a truthful perspective on options for attainable direction in relation to financial stature, everyone below middle class (including me) would have offed themselves before hitting adulthood.
Agreed. Many people have an inflated idea as to their future prospects. Of course these inflated notions are supported by a wide variety of interests that vary from those who hope you will work dutifully for a low wage to those who hope you really do prosper after all so that they may prosper as you do.
But yes, if the realistic prospects of lower income individuals where made clear instead of widely broadcasting success stories of a very very few who make it through those narrow “windows of possibility” I wonder what suicide rates would like like. I really think suicide rates are far, far lower than they would naturally be due to pervasive prevention efforts.
Of course, some people do go both ways.
There isn’t absolute freedom, but the clever illusion of such. Any direction you take is along a path laid before you. The terms are roughly the same. The opportunities are nearly equal, with some variance. And everything will have a slight taint marring its quality. In other words, Christmas is cancelled kids, on account of work! Now do the dishes and mop the floor.
Eh. Left right forward up down backwards? Those are your choices 😀