Fuck you to the moon and back!

Can’t define the feeling I’m having
Feels like everything is shaking
I think I’m bit by bit falling
As it keeps on hurting

Can I stop seeing?
The future I should be having
Lord turn me again to nothing
Cause I’m tired of fighting

Why am I the only thing
That is this wrecking?

Maybe I’m not born to live
Or maybe I was born to leave

I felt so hurt hearing everything from someone else. Hearing how incapable I am is something I’m used to but hearing it not directly coming to the person hurts more. It felt like I was being mocked without even knowing. I thought I made bond with you but maybe I was wrong or maybe that’s just me thinking that something has change even though nothing did change.

I just want you to know that I enjoyed your students company very much. They gave me a ray of sunshine in this endless darkness. I experienced a lot through them, they made this worth having me hurt. As I was spending time with them, I thought that maybe I could stand the mockery, I could stand the pain. Somehow, they gave me hope to continue this journey. Despite everything I’m hearing I still didn’t want to leave, because I love your students, my students very much.
They made me felt special in many ways, they made me think that somehow I’m someone that has worth.
Worth spending time with, worth talking with, worth giving gifts, worth of their presence.

So yeah, they’re gifts that helped me to continue so I just hope you would give them the appreciation you didn’t made me experience.

Ciao Ma’am Joan!
Fuck you to the moon and back!

10:13pm 11/22/2017