I really do NOT want to live to see another year. Praying that I die before 2018. I’m afraid that one day, I will actually have the guts to commit suicide.
Yeah I don’t want to live to see 2018 either. I have the magic method figured out I’m just waiting til I want to use it. I didn’t want to see 2013,2014,2015, 2016 or 2017 either though……
It destroys me that my father would probably be in complete hell. But i honestly cant take it. I went out with a friend to help him fix his car today, and all i kept seeing was people getting better in life and everyone helping each other. But here i am starting over AGAIN, and getting nowhere i just feel alone and like i dont belong, im highlt convinced i dont belong. Ive tried for years after my first three attempts and now im tired, i cant handle any stress what so ever. Medications dont seems to work. I havent been in this depth of thinking for a while but its bad this time and i really dont want to try again. I just want to go. Hopefully soon when i get everything i wont have to go any longer. Everything just keepa getting worse anyways.
do not pray for death, for death is a guarantee. life is not. instead, pray for strength, guidance, truth. we all want to live. those of us that claim to die don’t really want to die, what we’re really saying is that we’ve had enough of this crooked world and long for an escape.
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2017 is not over yet, Just stick it out a bit longer, you never know what might happen!
Yeah I don’t want to live to see 2018 either. I have the magic method figured out I’m just waiting til I want to use it. I didn’t want to see 2013,2014,2015, 2016 or 2017 either though……
I don’t get it.
You pray to die but you are afraid that one day, you will actually have the guts to commit suicide.
???
I’m afraid of upsetting people who care about me
It destroys me that my father would probably be in complete hell. But i honestly cant take it. I went out with a friend to help him fix his car today, and all i kept seeing was people getting better in life and everyone helping each other. But here i am starting over AGAIN, and getting nowhere i just feel alone and like i dont belong, im highlt convinced i dont belong. Ive tried for years after my first three attempts and now im tired, i cant handle any stress what so ever. Medications dont seems to work. I havent been in this depth of thinking for a while but its bad this time and i really dont want to try again. I just want to go. Hopefully soon when i get everything i wont have to go any longer. Everything just keepa getting worse anyways.
do not pray for death, for death is a guarantee. life is not. instead, pray for strength, guidance, truth. we all want to live. those of us that claim to die don’t really want to die, what we’re really saying is that we’ve had enough of this crooked world and long for an escape.