I don’t know how to take care of myself?

  November 7th, 2017 by eternaldarkness

Depressed people tend to not take care of themselves.  We sometimes don’t eat right, don’t go out, sleep too much, sleep too little.  Stuff like that.  We all know that.  But sometimes, we don’t even know that we don’t know how to take care of ourselves.

For example, this morning, I finally turned on the heat.  It’s been cold all week, maybe even since last week.  Why didn’t I turn on the heat earlier?  Then it dawned on me that I didn’t know how to put me first and put my health first.  I was thinking, nah, I can brave it, it’s not THAT cold yet, and turning on the heat costs more, so I’ll turn it on next week, etc.

I knew it was cold, and I felt cold, yet I didn’t think it was really cold cold, or that I needed to turn on the heat to not get sick.

Like it’s such a duh moment.  It’s obvious I should keep warm.  But when you’re depressed and don’t care to live, you don’t take very good care of yourself.  Also, my entire childhood we didn’t have heat or AC, so I just got used to being very cold or very hot.  Idk, when you’ve never been taken care of, you don’t know to take care of yourself.  I can’t explain it.  It’s like I know it but I don’t do it because of…habit?  Or I just don’t know to take care of myself??

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