I made it to 30. Now what?

  November 3rd, 2017 by beautifulmonster

Turned 30 couple days ago… been dreading this ‘milestone’ for awhile now. You would think my family to help soften the blow would have done something for me a party… or a cake… or $2 worth of balloons!!!

Naaaaa of course not.
Spent the last 5 days sleeping because I couldn’t deal with reality. Only now I have this itching desire to scream and run rip my hair out slice my skin burn the house down.

I feel like I’m going to explode. I am going to explode. My chest is so tight. I have so much on I can’t and don’t want to deal with it.

How do I press pause on time?!

I always felt like I was just going to die before 30 or right after.

I’m so frustrated with life. It was meant to get easier.

I can’t stop moving. I look like I’m on drugs when I’m actually straight (FML)

World please just pause. Stop for awhile please

Processing your request, Please wait....