I think about it all the time. Every second of every day. I need it. I’ve been hospitalised a few times and I’m always planning my next attempt. I’m obviously quite terrible at it but I will get there in the end, literally.
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I think so. Since it is what will end life, it only makes sense that it would take over your life, even before it kills you. It seems to just consume every moment once you decide that its right for you.
That’s the newer train of thought. I suppose for some it is an addiction, for some a coping mechanism, and for others. . . ?
Realism?
Ding, ding, ding! Give that man a prize!
Cocaine is a coping mechanism. Just ask bankers on Wall Street.
For anyone who spends more than a year thinking about it but not actually doing it, yes I think it’s fair to say it’s an addiction.
it seems impossible for me to commit like many of you. i think about it a lot, and wish i could get myself to attach to the idea and embrace it, but there’s something holding me back. unsure if it’s the holy spirit or what, but i was once in a really bad place where i did attempt, but that was just one time, and that was 4 years ago, and i still can’t determine if it was a real attempt or not. i was a complete mess, and i still am, but i’ve yet to attempt again. i just think about it a lot, and wish i was at the point of doing it, but honestly, i think it’s just fear, or maybe it’s hope. it’s something, that’s for sure…
@x – Most honest thing I’ve read on this site. Everyone else seems to be trying to out-suicide each other. You’re the first person to have the guts to admit that something is holding you back, fear, hope, God, instinct, whatever. Once you accept that something is holding you back, that’s when you can begin to move on and dig yourself out of the addiction. Good luck, x.