Every day is a constant battle
Just trying to survive
Looking for another reason
Why you should be alive
You see the ones around you
Smile with no care in the world
You wear your pain upon your sleeve
Yet it’s never heard
The scars they tell a story
Of who you used to be
The broken girl inside you
Is dying to be set free
To drag the blade across your skin
And watch the blood flow out
To know you can control the pain
To lose those fears and doubts
If only for a second
It slowly numbs the pain
Until it all gets too much
And it all gets done again
Each time the cuts get deeper
And the blood begins to pour
The relief becomes addictive
You cut deeper, harder, more
Til one day something happens
And you realise it’s to late
You know you’ve done damage
It’s time to meet with fate
Relief it turns to panic
As you scramble for the phone
You realise in that moment
You’ll probably die alone
The fear is overwhelming
You wonder what you could have done
How you let life get so bad
But now it’s almost done
You slowly feel yourself get weak
As you slide onto the ground
Hoping someone will get here soon
So you just might be found
It’s getting cold and dark now
So you close your eyes
It’s only then you realise
You never said goodbye
It’s too late it’s over
You’re time has finally come
Was cutting really worth it?
Now the damage is done?
3 comments
The downward spiral ever spinning circling dragging you deeper to the inevitable end. Ugh..
Yeah you really hit it out of the park in the first stanza “looking for another reason why you should be alive”
I’ve been looking for a long time and I constantly cone up with nothing but lots of reasons to die
It’s hard to find reason to live when it feels like the world is against you. It’s just easier to give in to the urge but sometimes you’ll find reasons in the most unlikely places…. keep looking.