23 years old now, will be 24 in Feb. life started going downhill at age 19. it hasn’t gotten any better. worse, actually. i’ve practically thrown my hands up now. a lot of debt, scarred up, tatted up, burned countless bridges, sabotaged every relationship. i’ve ruined my whole life. i think 24 is it for me. oh well. i just wish i could donate my organs, as my physical health seems to be just fine.
i wish that i could donate them now, while i am still alive. how silly that one must be dead for them to even consider, when i am willing to give them up NOW, while they are working just fine. i swear i would do it.
Isn’t it possible to donate a kidney and part of your liver while you are still alive? Or how does that work? Maybe you have to know the person you’re donating to? I’m not sure how that works… To me, it also sounds like a lot of work. Like, after I die, I don’t care who takes what but while I’m living, it just seems like a lot to be cut up in a hospital and then have to recover an’ all that…
Dude, don’t underestimate the value of good physical health. As someone who is weak in that department, really, that is a super asset to have. Mental health is also tied to physical health. And both can be greatly improved through sleep, relatively healthy eating, and exercise. And therapy. I’ve made so many mistakes myself, and often feel hopeless and as if my life is a write-off. But hearing someone else say it is different. I never want other people to give up. I guess we often judge ourselves much more harshly than we judge others. Or something.
puberty. adolescence. the moment my innocent mind began dealing in the realm of social worth. when what you are (race,class,intelligence) started to matter and progressively defined everything.
i’ve never felt so disconnected from everyone, ever. i feel painfully disconnected from the world around me. most likely, i’m going to end up running away again, but really disappearing for good this time.
i am 28 and i’ve been disconnected for a while. my 20s have been shitty. experienced multiple failed relationships. even with everyone i know i feel very lonely and don’t fit in. one of my previous partners said he could see me running away and not looking back.
relationships are overrated! i’ve had a few, and i felt like i was being trapped. perhaps we didn’t have enough space, but i need my space. if i were in a relationship now, i would not want to live with each other, and we’d hardly see each other. i still need to live my own life and not be so engrossed with someone else. not that i’d stand a chance anyway. ^_^
When I hit puberty. Porn addiction grew to include sex addiction. It’s as if my brain can’t deal with orgasms, I always feel terribly out of it for days afterwards. I just want to go back to being a kid and not really knowing about sex. It’s also just the loneliness of being too shy to have a social life. And the social anxiety gets 10 x worse after an orgasm.
Meh I can’t even remember, probably when I realized what life is. The society brought me to who I am now being a kid were the golden years I suppose, and even that I could not enjoy because I had to deal with petty worthless issues.
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I think around ages 10/11 was when I started to notice that I felt different from my friends at school. You?
That’s exactly what and when it happened to me
The day I fell in love.
Isn’t that a good thing?
Apparently not lol
I guess it depends on how good the relationship is if that is what they meant
Kindergarten
I never wanted to go to school
23 years old now, will be 24 in Feb. life started going downhill at age 19. it hasn’t gotten any better. worse, actually. i’ve practically thrown my hands up now. a lot of debt, scarred up, tatted up, burned countless bridges, sabotaged every relationship. i’ve ruined my whole life. i think 24 is it for me. oh well. i just wish i could donate my organs, as my physical health seems to be just fine.
You can sign up to donate your organs, but whether or not they’re viable for a transplant will depend quite heavily on where and how you die, no?
i wish that i could donate them now, while i am still alive. how silly that one must be dead for them to even consider, when i am willing to give them up NOW, while they are working just fine. i swear i would do it.
Isn’t it possible to donate a kidney and part of your liver while you are still alive? Or how does that work? Maybe you have to know the person you’re donating to? I’m not sure how that works… To me, it also sounds like a lot of work. Like, after I die, I don’t care who takes what but while I’m living, it just seems like a lot to be cut up in a hospital and then have to recover an’ all that…
@suicidal dreamer
i’ll be 24 in december.
scarred up. tatted up. burned every bridge. bout ready to clock out
Dude, don’t underestimate the value of good physical health. As someone who is weak in that department, really, that is a super asset to have. Mental health is also tied to physical health. And both can be greatly improved through sleep, relatively healthy eating, and exercise. And therapy. I’ve made so many mistakes myself, and often feel hopeless and as if my life is a write-off. But hearing someone else say it is different. I never want other people to give up. I guess we often judge ourselves much more harshly than we judge others. Or something.
Definitely at age 14 when I entered high school and haven’t recovered since
My life went horrible since middle school. I changed schools a lot, high school was awful, same thing goes for college.
When I was 17 that’s when he’ll began
Hell*
The day I was born.
puberty. adolescence. the moment my innocent mind began dealing in the realm of social worth. when what you are (race,class,intelligence) started to matter and progressively defined everything.
oh how i yearn to be 10 again
18 for me, Marines didn’t work out, now i got injuries and can hardly work phsyically. Just turned 20 and I’m ready to go too
i’ve never felt so disconnected from everyone, ever. i feel painfully disconnected from the world around me. most likely, i’m going to end up running away again, but really disappearing for good this time.
Im 23 now, it has started in februari and it is getting worse and worse.
<3 <3 <3
did something happen in february ?
@ lostallhope001
i am 28 and i’ve been disconnected for a while. my 20s have been shitty. experienced multiple failed relationships. even with everyone i know i feel very lonely and don’t fit in. one of my previous partners said he could see me running away and not looking back.
I’m 26 at least you were in a relationship. I’ve never been in one ahhh what can we do right
relationships are overrated! i’ve had a few, and i felt like i was being trapped. perhaps we didn’t have enough space, but i need my space. if i were in a relationship now, i would not want to live with each other, and we’d hardly see each other. i still need to live my own life and not be so engrossed with someone else. not that i’d stand a chance anyway. ^_^
When I hit puberty. Porn addiction grew to include sex addiction. It’s as if my brain can’t deal with orgasms, I always feel terribly out of it for days afterwards. I just want to go back to being a kid and not really knowing about sex. It’s also just the loneliness of being too shy to have a social life. And the social anxiety gets 10 x worse after an orgasm.
Meh I can’t even remember, probably when I realized what life is. The society brought me to who I am now being a kid were the golden years I suppose, and even that I could not enjoy because I had to deal with petty worthless issues.