I’m tired, of being me. I want so badly not to face this reality anymore. I don’t know how to stop causing myself suffering. I just want to numb the awareness of it away. But nothing works anymore. I am the problem. My thoughts, feelings, experience of the world. But I don’t know how to change all that brokenness. I’m too attached…it’s all that I am. I’ve trapped myself in a loop of despair, and it only ends when something kills me.