You never really think about how alone you are until you see another person. I was studying in an empty hallway at my dorm at 2 am and I see this one girl walking to her room. I took notice of her at the beginning of the semester. Thought she was cute. Nothing more than that. I would take glances of her and she would take glances at me, although it could be because she was creeped out by me. It’s not necessarily that I have feelings for her, hell I’ve never even talked to her. For some reason just seeing her walk by made me sad however. I think I thought of what if I decided to talk to her at the beginning of the semester. What if I tried to get to know her and such thing. I think what made me sad is the idea that there are millions of possibilities that are there. A person could potentially be this important person you would never be able to live without in another life time, but you never even talked to her. The idea that in another life, given the right choices were made, you could have had something special with some one. This can apply to anyone. Don’t you think about what if you just talked to the one random person walking by you on the street. I don’t know. It just feels like a tragedy that those things don’t happen. I don’t know. It just makes me think of how alone I am. I’m the only one to blame for that.
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If girls find you creepy, they try to avoid eye-contact and to put a distance btw themselves and you, so I think you’re getting it wrong. She might be curious/interested but if she’s looked at you a few times each time you’ve run into her then I’d take that as a positive sign.
There was a really pretty girl in my university class who used to exchange glances often with me. Finally I got the courage to strike up a conversation-once I broke the ice we became friends. Turned out she had a bf but despite that she still liked to check me out and vice versa. Also happened with another girl who was hot and she was dating a total loser…but that’s another story.
Yes for me beautiful girls/relationships is one of the reasons I’m still around. I’ve always enjoyed dating them despite the emotional roller-coaster it can create. However my life was topsy-turvy for a long time and I never had a lot of money so I think it’s better that I didn’t get too deeply involved with anyone. Even more glad I never got married/had kids because I’d be in ‘hell’ right now…trapped by the family and job to support them.
Down the line I might get married, but I need to get financially settled first. So in your case I’d suggest live with no regret. Trust me if you don’t approach that girl that you think you could’ve had or the woman of your dreams/potential wife, it’ll haunt you for the rest of your life. I’ve really regretted not having the courage to talk to a few such girls like that in the past.
Despite the fact that I wasn’t too keen on getting married at an earlier stage in my life, I wouldn’t mind if it was someone I was truly crazy about. Apart from money/freedom, what else is there to live for in life right?
“If girls find you creepy, they try to avoid eye-contact and to put a distance btw themselves and you, so I think you’re getting it wrong.”
This. Or they avoid eye-contact and smirk to themselves. Prolonged eye contact means that they’re attracted or least curious like the above poster said.
I get your point, and you’re not the only one. I have many regrets and many ‘could have’s but they’re all behind me now. I’m on my stage of life where nothing matters anymore, and what must happen will happen anyway.
Talk to her dammit! What have you got to lose? Maybe next semester?